mY wAyS oF lIvInG iN tHiS pAiNfUl WoRlD

FINE

2010-02-03T01:57:00.000+08:00

if tt u wanted...i will give it to you...
i can't be bother with you anymore...

some update

2009-12-27T20:14:00.000+08:00

the bbq was fun...
thanz Sebastian for the invitation, thanz all of u for the fun i had...
and the funny powered faces...lolz...
the only nt fun part is Tony switch off my light when i am in the toliet...tt hell FREAK ME OUT...dun do tt again...
i almost cried...i am really scared off dark n i am NT KIDDING...

some thing is nt for me to comment on but dissappointed to noe...
I knew something will happen after she is gone...
but I did nt expect to be tt worst off...
things changes when she left my world...
things r nv the same...

sometime, once u lost someone or something they ain't coming back again...
no matter hw many pple sae time will heal but it a part of me tt was cut off literally...
dun tell me u understand...u dun...u dun understand hw it feel to be looking at her leaving further away from u day by day n nothing u can do to help...dun tell me urs is much worst off...i noe it hurts for u but u dun noe hw pain i am in, like i dun noe urs...so dun sae u UNDERSTAND...

to add on to the alreadi lost part, things changes...
pple changes...n it will nv be the same again...
i hate to noe, i am griefing for my lost n i am nt done wif tt dun add on to the alreadi hurting like hell wound...

i hell noe drinking is nt the wae...but like i care...i juz want to run away...
everything juz tigger off the pain, the scene in the proposal where the grandma is dying off...it juz make me cry when i thought she is really dying...
got to noe she onli acting, i juz got pissed off over a moive...haha...i noe it sound stupid...but can u dun play wif such stupid thing...it ain't funny for some...

bad dreamz...

2009-12-16T20:28:00.002+08:00

I dreamt of my grandma ydae...my dreamz goes like tis: We r suppose to get out from the building for the reason I can't recall...I carry my grandma on my back n keep running...She juz say a word to me which was Thank you...all i noe is that i keep running down fleets of stairs n crying, n oso keep saying sorry to my grandma which I dunnoe why...As I run, she is getting weaker...Evenutally, She had passed on while I was carrying her which is to say she die in my care...That was when I woke up...I was tearing while I was sleeping so as to mean I was crying in my sleep...When I woke up sitting in the middle of the night crying again...It had been awhile since it happen...

Dinner & Dance

2009-12-13T17:24:00.003+08:00

WOW, is the word for my D&D...it neither Dance nor Dinner, it was totally cam whoring...I only manage to eat the first 2 dishes, the rest of the time was drinking my glasses n glasses of red wine n photo taking session...I was super high...All I can tell u is our table had clear 4 bottles of red wine...Yes, I was part of the pple to help clear the wines...lolz...But I was nt wasted...I totally noe wat I was doing...after the D&D, We still join Gerald in Balaclava...So the result is another 2 bottles of beer dwn my stomach...lolz...it on Gerald...Thank Gerald for the treat....He does nt look very sober lolz...I noe u all will nt believe tt i was nt drunk when I said so...So I dun bother to explain, I can tell u I noe when to stop n hw to go home tt fine enough...After all the drinking, no puking n hangover for me as I am really nt drunk...the next day still wake up at 9am to edit my D&D photos den loaded it into facebook which is a muz for me...lolz...I was super tired after the D&D...I was very high so tt explained the free hugs photos in facebook...lolz...got to go, i still nd to study...ciaoz...

bz bz

2009-11-28T21:46:00.004+08:00

I had been very bz recently due to my bridging course...had lotz of revision lessons and papers to sit for...I had been always trying to keep myself really busy, so I got no time to think about anything...

Sometime juz wonder if there is anything that is to be drink and I can have all my emotions removed...I do not mind being a living dead...I juz dun wat any emotions tt all...sometime I juz want a shoulder or an arm to lean on n counted on, so I do not need to rely on myself always...but I noe I am nt living in a world of fairy tales, there ain't some prince on white horse galloping towards me for resuce...lolz...so after lying on the spot where I fall no matter hw reluctantly I still had to stand up on my feet n charge forward...Hw I wish I haf an elder brother to rely on...

I noe u will get hurt, so pls dun come near me...I will keep a distance wif u...It nothing to do wif u, u r a very nice person but I juz do not want or need any other more commitment...I had more den enough...beside i can't stand the after effect too...so leave me alone...

Looking forward to D&D...going with a different group of pple...*praying hard tt nothing unlucky will happen to me*...

update

2009-11-12T22:33:00.003+08:00

pls dun be wry abt me, dun be so gd n kind to me...i am scared...
i dun want to allow myself to sink in n get stuck there, i am stuck enough...
someone juz remind me of yc, always so quiet; always had to guess wat he thinking; nv gd in expressing himself...always i am doing the toking, seriously sometimes i start to see yc shadow in him...i noe i still dun want to give up on yc, but i nv will haf the courage to tell him...
he had gf nw, shld be spending his life very peacefully i dun want to be the person tt stir up a roar
i hate myself for losing the courage to love again...
i hate to wallow in self pity n sadness but i cannot help but emo...
all i can sae is i am feeling better, i had find back abit of smile, laughter though sometime can't help to think it wrong to smile when i juz lost someone nt long ago...i am starting to eat abit more n slp better in the night...though i still will cry, still will daze out at the very least i am better den b4...i am recovering tt all i can sae...

我好累。。

2009-10-12T20:37:00.003+08:00

我周围的人以很习惯了我的坚强的个性，所以他们都会说她会没事的。
她很强，没事的没事得。我真的没事吗。
我不这么觉得。我说了我有事但你们又无法帮我，
可是同时你们也会期待我告诉你们我有多么有事。
可是我就是没办法告诉你们我的感受也懒得解释
所以选者说我没事你们明白吗？
我只需要时间来冲淡所有的一切。。。
原来没事说多了人都会相信甚至连自己都会相信。多可笑啊。
人的大脑真是不可思议。

Juz unhappy

2009-10-11T13:10:00.004+08:00

my gran had passed away...

the wake was i dun noe how to tell u, i was unhappy wif something tt my aunt did but wat to do? i will juz walk away n pretend tt i did nt see or hear, tt the best i can do...
i dun want to fight on my gran wake...everyone there is sad i dun want to add oil to the fire tt already burning...

Yinling mention tt gran's spirits told her tt she dun want anyone to cry on the charm or on the chu bin dae...she juz want us to be happy n live on...if we cry for her, she will be upset...all tt she ask for was when her death anniversary juz bring along her fav food n her fav clothes for her, she will be happy enough...for her grandchildren, muz study hard...last she requested us to send her off with a smile instead of tear...after hearing tt i juz broke down, i feel so heartbroken upon hearing tt...I am sorry gran, i can't send u off with a smile all i can do it try n0t to cry...but i can't even stop myself from crying...I MISS U GRAN, I MISS UR SMILE...when i shut my eyes, these dae my gran smile will juz appear in my mind....gran r u trying to tell me tt u r happy nw? gran can u juz appear in my dreams to tell me if u r no longer in pain or hw u r doing or r u adapting to the netherworld? all i ask for is you r at peace tt all...

being moody...

2009-09-27T00:56:00.003+08:00

i had been super moody tis daes...dun noe y lei...the bank had a court case to fight n i had to appear as witness for the case...i am nt pissed off becoz i had to appear in court...i am unhappy tt my ex boss nv even prepare me or even ask me for consent abt it...he juz push me to the lawyers n think his job is done...i had no choice over tis, i had to appear in court if nt the email will nt be able to present as an evidence in court...i juz had alot of unsaid unhappiness toward the whole thing...n i had some stupid money problem tt haunting like a never ending nightmare...ever since i started working, i had nv gotten a gd job tt can give me a gd pay den leave home on time...b4 i started in SCB, i thought DBS is super long working hrs who noe SCB is worst i nv reach home by 6.30pm i had to even work till 3.30am...all tis 1&1/2yr i work real hard to finish all i could but it was all nt recognized...i had to ot till i left wif haf my life den i had the same pay as dine who nd to work 10 plus dae a month...when pple can happily study their uni, i had to fret over the money for my sch...when i want to go interview to get a better pay, i was question y am i so ambitious wanted to haf tis haf tt in my life? do u think i like to fret over tis things? ask mi to throw away my trouble...u tell me hw? ask me to tell u wat happen, even if i sae it out u oso can't help me...it juz stick me to like a superglue i can't rid it off...i juz wish tt i am dead...i dun wish to live anymore but i can't commit suicide if nt the inssurance company will nt pay my family...i really wish to leave tis disgusting world...y didn't i really let u all eat curry chicken in phuket at the very least there is frenz to bring my ashes back to s'pore...i juz want to fade away n vanish into thin air....

2 September 2009

2009-09-03T14:02:00.002+08:00

well, my dae ain't gd at all...i had my interview for jetstar airways at 9...first we had some interaction session after which there are some activities to do...the first one was use 7 different shapes to make up 11 identical square....follow by a sales pitch...the last of the activities was to do the IQ test...the rest of the question ain't hard, the only one i cannot figure out was the identifying the cities on the map...well i sucks in that...last was the final one to one interview which i did not make it through...i am only abit away from the job...well, nvm at least i made it this far...i am contented liao...after tat meet mel n dine to go waterloo to pray at the temple for the trip tml...after tat we went to lai lai for dinner...after which dine n me went to the library for the phuket trip research...but we find nothing much from the book n dine can't find her baby blues...we went home after tt...when i reach home i hear tat my granny was warded into CGH...wow, wat next interview fail, down wif cold n cough, granny warded into hospital...haiz...well, the only positive thing i had was at least is nt the worst as i had been through b4....

3 Septmber 2009

i had went to hospital juz awhile ago...the doctor say my granny's heart was fine, it was juz an old relaspe of her previous condition...well had taken x-ray for waiting for report now to see if a sugery is needed or not...i can only wait till tonitez...i am flying off to phuket tonitez...so see ya on 6 September...

MAYDAY Concert

2009-08-30T13:59:00.006+08:00

I went to MAYDAY concert ydae...it was so cool...they sung all lot of songs...like
DNA
如烟
你不是真正的快乐
温柔
知足
夜访吸血鬼
天使
孙吾空
突然好想你
离开地球表面
恋爱ing
笑忘歌
最重要的小事
出头天
倔强
Hosee
志明与春娇
放肆
终结孤单
疯狂世界
爆肝
我心中尚未崩坏的地方
春天的吶喊
垃圾车
雌雄同体
约翰蓝侬
叫我第一名
人生海海
一颗萍果
赌神
轧车
彩虹
憨人

the whole concert was super high...got a lot of effect as such sudden explosion which caught me off guard...firework, snowing effect...the concert was worth the money...though the concert was awesome but one thing i dislike was it was dark almost all the time, i noe dark den got feel n the entire crowd with light stick will look amazingly beautiful i juz feel uneasy in the dark tt all...thank to Joelle, she brought along the light stick which is yellow...so it was at least bright enough for me...i nv let the yellow light stick out of my sight, as i noe if it goes out of my sight i will start freaking out...as MAYDAY promise to sing past midnight, the concert ended at 12.30 like tt...i took a bus home alone after the concert coz Joelle live in kakit bukit area so we took different bus...the bus onli reach till mel home area, so i had to walk home as i dun want to spend money on cab as it has midnight charges....the area is dark...so freaky, so i held out my light stick to calm myself n keep calling my frenz to see who is nt aslp to keep me accompany to distract me from my fear...jas got project to rush, vin emotionally no stable, dine overnight flt, mel sleep early, teddy bear bear switch off the fone, linus did not reply me so i guess he had fallen aslp, heng i found philip n rain not aslp yet...they accompany till i reach my void deck...seriously i was super scared...okok, i noe i timid...

原来要找人陪我走一条暗暗的路有这么难，
只有在这种时候我就会想如果有男朋友陪我就好了。。。
不过，算了我路也走完了，吓也吓过了，怕也怕过了，就算是一个人也无所为了。。。
在演唱会听五月天唱现场的突然好想你，也让我想起一直想遗忘的人。。。
这首歌也让我想起了我不开心的去年12月，
那时的我把脚跌断了也让我在那时发现了我不想听到或看到的消息。。。
因为你的一句我怕你累，
就否定我所有的努力的说要离开我的世界。。。
是你说要进入我的世界，想要好好的了解我但是你没做到就离我而去。。。
就当我已习惯了依赖你，你就把我像个没人要得布娃娃丢掉。。。
我至今无法忘了那种可怕的感觉。。。
你是第一个我真的真的喜欢上的人，所以你说的话我都听。。。
不要穿太短，不要去clubbing，不要跟此他的男生那么要好。。。
你说的我都做了。。。
我也不要救你一定要来接我下班，我知道你很累。。。
我已经试着体谅你了可是你却给我全世界最可笑和最痛的理由分手。。。
对我来说是一种污辱，你说你变了心我会接受的放你走可是你不是。。。
我不想说了。。。ciaoz...

hmm...ur

2009-08-22T16:39:00.004+08:00

Well, 4 more days for me to move to a new job...yeah, finally can leave this freaking tiring job...from 27 Aug onwards i will be able to leave at 5.30 sharp...lolz...nw i can laugh it Aloy n Linus who had to go home on at 6...lolz...they r not able to release me early as there is freaking increase of hire...but thing is it was nt less in the first place...heard Jessica reporting the number of hires we had in the month of July...we had 200 plus man..deduct away the 25 pple for FGIP...oh man, no wonder we r freaking overwork...One Happy news: Esther had given birth to a Baby Boy...he is super cute...Esther rest well during ur maturity leave and i hope u find a better job...coz it really no point stay there as they r not thinking of hiring pple...you will be super tiring can, dun torture yourself...last update, I am going to Phuket on the 4 september...well i will had someone to took over me...who will be sweet young thing...lolz...porkster, Linus and Andy thank me ok....becoz of me you all can see sweet young thing...lolz...so better be nice to me...lolz...

play bball

2009-08-14T12:36:00.002+08:00

in the early afternoon, went to seoul garden and eat the student lunch...heehee, though it student lunch it was still expensive, it cost me 14.40 for it...well nvm as i got eat 14.40 worth of food tt the most important thingy...finally went for bball game ydae...super shiok i really sweat a lot and dine they all say my whole face turn red...lolz...tt onli happen when i really exercise alot..plus i still had flu ydae...lolz..ya, i noe u all will say sick still can play bball...lolz...well i juz can do it...lolz...den accompany dine go swimming after went to aston and eat...it was funny ydae...and we had a lot gerls tok...tt the best part...

went to ion on sunday(part 1) & confused (part 2)...

2009-08-03T22:38:00.001+08:00

went to ion (part 1)

went to ion wif vincent, geraldine & cheng xi...ion got alot of shops but we got no time to shop as we meet up quite late at 3 plus as it was a last min join in...opps cheng xi did i ruin ur date wif dine...lolz...coz initially was only cheng xi n dine meeting together den dine dun want to be alone wif him so i join in...but dun noe y vin come..lolz...aniwae heng he came at least i dun look so extra...lolz...seriously got time i want to go ion again...got a lot of things to shop though i got no money...i juz go see see look look lo...i nw officially a poor student..lolx...yeah i finally watch harry potter le...yahoooo....but the movie was like a bit duh, honestly i dun think it good...the movie like very low budget lighting very poor, as most of u noe i dun like to be in dark places as i feel unease...okok la, i noe u all will be saying actually it scared not unease lo...fine, watever i am the Zena warrior that is afraid of everything given by Philip...whichever sound better to u...lolx...reach home at 11.15 quite late, as i normally tend to stay at home more on sunday...but i enjoy myself...

confused(part 2)

todae i was called back for help as todae had nt enough pple for work coz farra & catherine on mc, shannon had left us...so sudden my boss become very concern abt me...this send chill down my spine...it make me felt like i am back in DBS the fake pple environment again...this is seriously eeeekkking me...i am still gone be there to see her though i am no longer in the dept...it juz freaking disgusting...dun act like u care when u dun...it seriously gross me to the core...ok tt all for todae...got to go slp liao...i nd to train myself to wake up early in the morning to take bus as i will be receptionist soon so cannot anyohow spend money...haiz...nitez n sweet dreamz to all my beloved frenz...

makan & pissed off

2009-08-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

went to kovan & makan the teochew porridge ydae and went to have beancurb at seleige ydae...yummy and super bloated...i had ask phyllis for a early release for 3 daes in order to settle my school loan thingy but when i give her time sheet to sign she say this stupid comment that make me piss off...i did nt answer her...coz she ask me y i came back on sundae to work, as if i like it...den i reply coz i cannot finish my work as the volume of hires is increasing...den she say if u can go off early y u cannot finish...i had been stay very late, later den u k...the other time u promised tt if i nd to leave u r ok wif 2 weeks nw, i only ask for 3 daes earlier u haf problem wif it...damn it...wat is ur problem...ur volume increasing, ur portfolio increasing u cannot take it...it nt my problem..dun vent it on me...i did nt ask for 2 weeks, u shld thank god for it...argh...dun want to tok abt it liao...super pissed off...ciaoz...

i had tender liao....

2009-07-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

dear frenz,

i am super happy ydae...i had tender my resignation and had decided to move on to my study....but i had yet to work out for my loan but at least now i had got a plan though it nt easy but it ain't that hard to move on though...i finally can leave liao...i somehow feel bad for my colleague now as they will be taking on more work den ever...as i, shannon, amrita is all leaving...plus Esther will be on leave since september...OMG, i can imagine the amt of load they have....I am really sorry, but i can no longer take it as i had totally lost interest in the job due to alot of factors....but i still love all of you guys...really thank u so much for the guidence and care you all shown me...Esther and Joelle, i love the both of u most...i will miss u all...but we can always still meet up ritez...i dun mind go bala meet u joelle...lolz...i will miss Yusof and Linus too...coz they both of them always listens to me whine but they nv once complain abt it always let me whine...lolz...thank you so much the 4 person who play a real important role in my SCB life...love u all lotz...

Fretting...

2009-07-26T02:27:00.002+08:00

yes, i am fretting over my school loan stuff...I can't get a guarantor for my loan...I am out of any ideas to be able to work my way through...my work took too much of my time n effort tat i can't focus on my study...in order to study i had to go hence i will work there as receptionist as it near my school even after it move it near my hse...but at tis stage nothing is cfm tt i can get the place...well 船到桥头自然直, if not worst come to worst drop into the sea lo...as i noe how to swim guess i still will nt die after all...i will find out more info from my school...i can't let my 4k to waste as i had pay it for the bridging course...my hard earn 4k...nw i die oso muz get degree so i can move on in life...i will nv be contented with the current life i had...I willingly to work judging by the amt of OT i work over the 1yr plus...i can cfm say i am nt a lazy person...i can say i am very hardworking to try complete my job...but i am really tired...well, juz let me be emo n i will get over it soon...i hope...

Moving on...

2009-07-25T14:27:00.005+08:00

I had decide to leave my current company as I had completely lost interest in the job...but actually had to settle a lot of things for me to move out of the job...first i need to settle my school loan, cfm that I had get a full loan b4 i can start school...I will be asking Kelly Services to try get me the receptionist job in SCB at Plaza by the Park coz it near my school...part of the reason is openly known by u guys...part of it is I still love the pple there who they are Esther, Yusof, Joelle, Jessica, Jessie, Duncan, Liana, Farra, Gavin, Aloysuis, Andy, Linus, Rae, Sandra. They are really nice people to work with and they are very kind and helpful to me...Seriously, if nt for them I had long left the job...I will miss them alotz if i cannot secure the receptionist job outside...if that really the case, well I will have to move on...beside I need MONEY too...haiz...this is the word i hate and love most...yes, i had a love-hate relationship with money...hate - is becoz no money no tok, which most of the case i got no money...love - well who dun love money ritez the more the merrier...if pple ask me if i am happy with my life, i will tell u i am unhappy...i had too much on my plates that it is wearing me out...i haf to move on till i can no longer move...but i had no solution to some of the things on my plate...i hate to lose control of things in my life but everything seem to lose control in my life eversince dun noe when...我想哭但是哭不出来...i juz hope everything will be fine till i finish my school...

steamboat...yummy

2009-07-18T23:56:00.008+08:00

we had steamboat at lip's hse todae...i started off with my cereal prawns cooking at 1.30pm, i ended the cooking at 3.30, after tt went to bath n chong down as wai, vin & ted was waiting for me in the car...lolz...i was late for haf an hr...lolz....sorry guys...reach lip hse at 4 plus...waiting for lip to finish his bathing den left for supermakert shopping at 5 plus...we brought a total of 108 plus of things...lolz...quite a lot...i juz love shopping at supermarket...went back to wash and prepare all the food at 6 plus...started the feast at 7.35 there about...lolz...with pei ming joining us a bit later...finish our first round at 9pm...den pei ming n rain went to buy ice cream...OMG...my fav...yummy *love* but it sinful...thank god they got buy dark chocolate ice cream...*my fav*...i drink a bit of the vodka tt we brought at giant as i am nt feeling very well hence only drink half a cup...haiz..better take care of myself...after we start our second round as there is still a lot of food left...we try to squeeze what we can into our stomach...we watch Harry Potter together n snacking while watching the moive...i had eaten alot today...shit, i sure gain weight...it look like it time to visit the doctor for dieting pills...lolz...philip say i eat one tub of ice cream after tat muz eat one tub of diet pills to balance it out...lolz...

the song that i love recently~~~妥协

2009-07-17T17:10:00.002+08:00

你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太野

你划定楚河汉界我不能轻易犯规

所有时间都是先给了你优先权

不自觉爱到不敢冒险

成了你的傀儡一年两年

才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是无解

绑着你不让你飞

历史不断重演我好累

爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写

你已下最后通牒

我躲在我的世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会变不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

the song super sad, it saying that the bf having another gerl but becoz he is used to the gf hence did nt break up...den the gf cannot mingle into his world but dun want to leave either hence she is trying to give in to get into his world...well, i can only say the gf is really silly to give in and keep lying to herself that one day she will be able to change this...haha...but the fact is it might nt be the case...the world is a harsh place to live in...get out of his world if u think u r tired of it, get out when it no longer a 2 parties affair anymore...dun nd to hurt yourself further...i noe u all will be saying it easier say den done n will say i dun understand....haha, but in fact i do understand...i noe hw hard it is to retreat n draw out from it but i did it...so dun tell me u can't, it only u dun want to...

Vincent 's Bdae

2009-07-16T23:00:00.004+08:00

First of all, Happy Bdae my dear frenz Vincent...dun emo so much as you had aged 1 yr liao..lolz..but i guess u now super happy...lolz...went to aston to haf dinner n celebration todae...the food there is nt bad n affordable...one main dish n two side dish cost me onli 6.50...worth it *thumbs up*...but the q took us 1 hr...almost die of standing on heels...lolz...really lots of work recently...super sianz as days goes by i getting more sick of my job...but well life ain't a bed of roses, so i had to face it...but i think my bed haf more thorns den rose....lolz...ok i better go shower and slp liao..tml got to work n CEO of Singapore SCB coming...haiz...

I am back...

2009-07-15T23:30:00.009+08:00

wow, ever since the last post which was dated 21 March 2008...lolz...at the point when ot is nt needed for me...now at 15 JULY 2009 looking back...i had been oting since may 2008 till now...well, shld nt had say tt i haf no ot, it a bad omen a jinx...lolz..i had been through a lot of thing for the past 1 yr or so...the fall back in dec 08 let me had a cast on my right leg...it a unforgettable event for me...why make me unable to attend D&D which i waited anxiously for it...i noe u all will say there is still nxt yr but the thing is sometime when thing had been missed they will nt be the same again...though D&D is an annual event but the theme will be different, the pple attending will be different...u dun say u will understand hw i feel when u dun though i noe it out of gd intention...had been really moody & stress recently...so sian n sick of my work...i need to find back the passion that i had in the past...Dear Lord, please help me to find the strength n courage to carry on...got to go slp liao...nitez...will try to update so often as possible but no promise k...u noe money come first...lolz...juz kidding...love u guys...

back again....

2008-03-21T18:49:00.002+08:00

i am back again...i initially thought my work will nd to ot alot but not tt much...which is a gd news to mi...although i the pay is lesser, but i am super happy...in the past i had a gd pay but the job scope sucks den the enviroment suck....there the pple r friendly up to now, in the future i dunnoe...here got a lot of thing to learn, but that all i wanted...i want to learn more thing...den my boss oso very gd...my working hrs r 8.30-5.30...i am always the first one to reach den i will spend haf an hr to eat my break den slowly do my thing...den at 10 plus my senior will ask mi to join them in buying breakfast, den i go jalan jalan a while den do work...den go for lunch at 12 or 12 plus depend if i meeting candidate or not...den go back at 2...haha...den work a bit till 5.30 or 5.45, i will made my way home...haha...so happy...i will start swim after my work hrs now...as i had much settle down into the office life...haha...swimming pool here i come....

new job...

2008-03-04T13:45:00.003+08:00

wow...so long nv update again...haha...i gonna start work soon...i been slacking at home...so shiok...wahaha...the best is still dun nd to work and stay at home...but i dun wish to get married juz to stay at home...haha...hard to please ritez....haha...the slacking life i had gonna be over quite sad but money is coming my way...haha...coz got work got money...haha...i think i slack enough liao...it time to move my butt liao...haha....well i really enjoy the daes that i slack at home...but i will jia you for my new job...a bit scared because it a total new job to me...haha...but will work hard...so i might be ot-ing most of the time...but it ok for mi..as it is wat i want to be in hr dept...JIA YOU LO....

first post of the yr...

2008-01-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

this is my first post of the new yr...so hereby allow mi to conclude my past yr event in 2007...

tis yr 2007 had nt been smooth sailing for mi, my carreer sucks, my love life sucks, my social life, is like pratically everything sucks for mi expect on the 24 of nov...tis yr my friendship had a lot of up and down, and i had uprooted a friend; which i thought he was; from my life. the basic concern was nv given to mi, it always mi who is doing the giving part in our friendship tt i thought will work out...u make mi think tt the things i do was nt needed at all so hence i had to be hard on myself in order nt to hurt myself further is to uproot u from my life...i noe i sound heartless and childish, it is juz a way to protect myself ba...i am sure i did nt expect the impossible out of u, but u didn't nt even give mi the basic of a simple how r u...actually it pain mi to cut off all ties wif u too...everyone had different expectation of their frenz, onli when thing r said den i will noe...i am a person if u dun tell mi i will nt noe it...pls dun think and assume, oh she will understand wat i am toking abt ,sorry i dun...for nw the word time and effort will be everything we need...see wif ur heart nt ur eyes...

for my carreers part, is a word haiz tt i can mention...the working hrs super duper long which i dun noe y....i was thrown to a place without any training and knowledge assuming oh jenny will noe wat to do...jenny do tis jenny do tt...jenny sit corporate q, coz no pple...jenny sit personal q, coz no pple...jenny where is the rubber band where is the date stamp...jenny go teasure counter coz janaki mc again...jenny go rememitance counter coz no one wants to sit there...STOP IT WILL U ALL, IT ENOUGH...I DUNNOE IS THE WORD FOR U AND FIND IT WIF UR OWN EYES AND DO UR OWN PART DUN PUSH THE WORK TO MI...I AM NOT A ROBOT, I AM A HUMAN FOR UR INFORMATION AND U WORK HERE LONGER DEN I DO JUZ USE UR DAMN BRAIN IF U HAF ONE...i feel like a ball being push around...i did nt flare up and snape at u all is becoz i dun wish to make it big and make myself in bad light but i am nt a pushover...drive mi up the wall and i will give u a nuclear effect...i swear i will...but aniway i tender on 18 of dec....haha...so all tis will being coming to a stop soon...i juz want to vent it out since last yr dunnoe where to do so...so i will do it here...haha...finally let it out for so long....i got time when i work to i keep crying...after work,i will always walk home from mrt station, is nt to save money but it take haf an hr to walk home from there so i can give myelf a gd cry, crying out loud...the pple who passes by mi r all shocked, they might be thinking another jilted gerl....haha...opps but i am nt, did nt haf one for mi to be jilted...i did tt for almost a week b4 i recover...i did nt tell u guys becoz i dun want u all to worry plus u all cannot do anything as it still need to depend on myself....haha...dun worry i am confirm fine nw...

for love life, a blank piece of paper....haha....sometimes feel a bit lonely too but i still haf u gerls i noe....haha...but for this part let nature take it course...

for social life i onli get to meet my dardars in the weekend after my work or late evening after my work...haiz...but for the past yr i spend a lot of my time in kbox and cinema...haha...so dun noe is to conclude tt is bad or gd...so i will leave tis part to the readers...haha...

all the above is my feeling abt past yr 2007...aniway, may the bad be gone wif 2007 and may the gd come together in 2008...thanz god for everything be it gd or bad, thanz u...u make mi feel alive as i had to be in order to go through all the thing above...haha...to tell u all something, i nt always so positive as u see mi, i had daes when i feel super down...but i will nt resort to killing myself tt is one thing for sure, hmm i guess i will nt ba...haha....tt the ends...nitez dardars

i freed...

2007-12-20T19:21:00.000+08:00

i finally tender after i got my bouns..i dun care so much liao...i really sick of wat i am doing now...i sometime did nt even haf time to eat, which make my gastric really getting bad to worst...and i keep fall ill of coz sometimes is fake mc la...haha...i nw will still haf to work for one mth b4 i am free frm the devil hands'...haha...actuall i dun hate the bank, i juz hate the work scope tt i am having nw...haha...i did nothing but count money for the past 8 mths...i go to work b4 the dae brighten, den i end work after the dae is darken...i live like a vampire for 8 mths, argh...i wondering everydae i work, eat, sleep den the nxt dae will be the same old time again...it is really boring plus nt point to mi...so i say it den i will do it...haha...my last dae will be 18/01/2008 fridae...i will take my time to slowly find one job...so guys dun worry abt mi...thanz le...

20/12

todae is my brother's ROM...we had being preparing all the thing for my kor, doing up the table, the deco in the chalet....ask mi y ROM is held in a chalet, i dun noe...i juz do wat i am told....todae rain some more, haiz...chalet is crammed enough den rain...all the guest cannot stay indoor den some of us open umbrella and stand in the rain..haha...so funny lo...took a lot of pic as usual...the whole cememory start at 11...when the zhu hun ren ask them if they r willing to come here to take their vow as husband and wife, if they r willing to love, comfort and being loyal to each other and spend their life together as one...when i heard my brother and my sis-in-law say ...yes i do is a simple word but the meaning and commitment behind it is something tt i nt ready, it a super big price to pay....i nt even ready for relationship let alone tis word "yes, i do"...but nevertheless, i wish my brother bai tou xie lao and get xin fu yo...

back again....

2007-12-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

i got a lot of update to do...haha...my frenz all asking mi to update...so i shall do ba..haha...let mi see...the last post was may ba...haha...nw dec lo...i will start from my block leave...as other is too way back...haha...

21/11
i meet my poly frenz...we meet at bugis and went to MOF...the food there is nice but cannot finsh...quite a lot...the main thing muz intro is their dessert...omg...it very nice, did nt noe i will get attract to very gerlish thing...haha...but it was very nice, maybe i got super sweet tooth ba...haha...tis show tt i still juz a normal gerl...haha...y i say tt is becoz my frenz say i very man...haha...but tt dae i onli meet pauline an doreen onli..zhen hui got chicken pox...poor thing...hope she recover fast...they got mi isetan voucher...haha...i can go shopping le...haha...

22/11
i stay at home the whole dae...juz surf net onli... i oso felt xin fu...haha...easily contented...haha...

23/11
todae meet mel and dine....as usual, we went to kbox...haha...kbox become our fav place liao..haha...we went to suntec one..the staff there more friendly as compared to cine one...thumbs up for suntec kbox...after tt we went for dinner at sakae sushi...another fav place for us...we went there quite late as we sing till quite late...haha..we sing finish all our songs den they did nt chase us out lei...haha...1st time ever...haha...tt dae was a happy one too...

24/11
sat is my early bdae bash...i gather all my family members and my bubby...and of coz i did nt forget all my dardars lo...they r consider my family members....tt dae dine was nt feeling well got fever some more, nv tell mi angry lo...understand u dun want mi to worry and be the center of attraction but u nt feeling muz say dun put up a brave front tt will make mi more worry k...after all my family member and vin they all left liao...dardars and mi gather at my room, we tok until 11 plus...jas pai seh let u go back so late...hope ur mum is nt angry wif u...sorry if she did....thanz guys for coming and staying up till so late even u all r very tired...and dun noe y tt dae super hot lo...haha...thanz guys for making my dae special...thanz to my 3 uni cousin, despite having exam still give mi face and come...and my uncle and auntie, sat coffeeshop is the most busiest dae of the wee, u all still come...thanz u all of u all...thanz for letting mi noe tt i got a lot of pple who love mi and dote mi....thanz...whenever i am unhappy i juz think back todae, i will be happy again...once again thanz...i love u guys too...sorry to let u guys po fei la...haha...thanz minyu and minli for the perfume and shade which is both my fav...really love it alot and it came as a surprise to mi...thanz dardars for watch, it really nice...it something tt i dun haf but it suit my style, quite man...haha...as for vin,lip,ted,wai,serene, rain...thanz for the neaklace although it totally not my style, a bit too sweet...haha...but tt make it special as i nv haf tt, so i assume tt u all r telling i am oso be sweet sweet style ritez...haha....i will wear it dun worry...the design is nice...i will turn it into my style....match it manly...haha...u all say want to get mi a very man cake but instead i got myself a very cute one...haha...coz the rest is juz too sweet wif flora pattern i can't stand it...i will vomit b4 i even cut it...haha...thanz all my uncle and auntie for the hongbaos....haha...my poly frenz chui yan, u send my present via singpost to mi, as she nt feeling well...she feeling better nw...thanz u..

25/11
another home staying dae as tml will be my jetstar interview....surf net again...i like a bit off from the world as i keep working like no dae no night...haha...i am not a workaholic but my work end very late...no choice...the early i can go is 7.30...den the latest can goes up to 9 plus...haiz...really starting to hate my job...

26/11
my actual bdae....i went for interview as early as 8.45...i took cab there as i was almost late..heee...den i had a hard time finding the bus stop...i feel like lost kid...the interview i did nt get in but nvm, i was nt nervous at all...surprising to mi, normally i am very nervous when i go for silkair maybe tt dae is my bdae....i wasn't sad when i did nt manage to go through...at least i did my best...my self intro is very steady and i present myself very confidently but dun noe y did nt get...but nvm i try my best...was nt disappointed at all...after the interview i went to my neighbour manicure shop is a newly open shop...i did my nail there plus nail art...it was very nice, but i forgot to take pic...the nail art is snowflackes one, got christmas feel...haha...purposly did tt...in the evening meet din and pm for dinner at sakae...haha...fav hangout again...dine brought mi a peppermint cake...so sweet of her and pm...the peppermint cake was very nice...but after finishing it we super full lo...or should say bloated ba...haha...

27/11
the latest dae of my block leave, feeling very low liao...sob...the nxt dae nd to go bcak to work...i stay at home coz got no mood to go out...juz feeling down and low...but at least i did nt waste my block leave...i live my block leave to the fullest...

after the blcok leave my life went back to the boring teller life...haiz...like i tell u all, wo li bu kai ye jin bu qu....haiz...i can't leave is becoz i got use to the salary, it is quite high as compare to others...but i really nt happy working there, it super stress and tired...i everydae had to put up a smiling face to others den i learn nothing but juz count money....in another words i am juz a high class cashier onli...haha...i wish to work wif dine but can't get in...if u ask mi y i wish to go airline, becoz of glamous, no u shld say it becoz of money, plus tt job had more off dae den i haf now...y i nd money, in the first place who dun nd money, i wish to go study tt y i nd more money, dun wish my parents to pay tt y nd to earn more myself...i dun mind being in service line as i am used to it liao anyway...but working in the bank, even off dae i will get phone to ask mi to settle complain cases, like tt how to rest u tell mi...den it a super duper stress enviroment and every details cannot go wrong...one thing goes wrong, i will be drown under the sliviar of the customer which r mainly bosses, lawyers, managers...sometime i wonder is the location and customer is diffcult or juz the job is plainly diffcult...haiz...even if i left the job, i dunnoe wat i want to do oso...haiz, i super indecivise, super dun like myself now...i always been, i like to do wat den i do wat...nw i become indecivise and naggy...ahhhhh...this is not some thing tt i wanted...super lost can anyone help mi out....ahhhhh...so fan...

vivo city

2007-05-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

went to vivo city to meet the gers there after my work, as GSS juz start so we decide to join in the craze...went to the food republic for my late lunch and conutine the shopping...mel is oreadi tall enough, she still wear heels tt dae in the end she brough a new shoe to ease her pain as the heels she had was too high for shopping...we walk the entire level 1 and 2 of vivo...and we saw tis car tt was cool to core man...i will put the pic up for u gus to see...real cool...after all the shopping and dinner,mel drive as home one by one...we manage to find our way home, even though we r nt really familiar wif the road...haha...u haf the inborn sense of directions...haha...boosting ourselves...haha...thank mel for ur lift home...i had a wonderful dae...thank dine for the tea tt u brew, though i dun like the taste since young but i still manage to finish..thank for the effort, cheers for ur effort...but pls spare mi out for tt nxt time...haha...really cannot take it...i can tahan pain but nt tt taste...haha...

dun noe wat title to put...

2007-05-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

work - had been really busy wif work...the training class was fun, it was full of tea breaks and gossping of some one...the laughter and the huge entertain *yi mei* was there was without fail to make us laugh like hell...haha...but sometime she is juz too attention seeking and asking so stupid question can't say it is really stupid it juz tt it was a very obvious question and the trainer had repeat a lot of time liao...wat i dun like abt her is tt she always ask the question tt is nt needed, she can jolly well keep her comments to herself...i noe tt we cannot expect everyone to be the same like us, it juz tt she is too childish for mi to accept so i shld juz ignore her...haha tt is wat i do best when it come wif dealing wif pple like yi mei and pamela tay( u guys will noe who i am refering to)...haha...

my beloved darling- meet my ger frenz on wed...went for kboxing and soaking session wif them...it was fun wif them man...can really tok rubbish the whole dae and we r nt even tired toking...haha...it the power of the gers....haha...really love them and cherish them to core...hope jas will be able to settle down soon and totally understand ur feeling in ur workplace, coz it same applied to mi...everything will be fine, juz hold on and remember tt god will look out for u so dun worry...for mel things will straighten out soon or later, but during tis time pla be mindful of the pple there...as for dine it always the customer plus lack of the teamwork in her workplace tt is giving her giving problem, juz ignore them and think tt they r juz childish, life will be better tis way...for nw each and everyone of us is facing problems, we juz do our best to overcome it, when there a will, there a way...growing up is a hassel but no choice we had to overcome tis...we will get use to all tis soon...growing can be stress, and demoralizing but hold on we will find a better way...jia you, jia you...MINASAN GANBATTE KUDASAIINO...

stoning...

2007-04-22T14:04:00.000+08:00

started on mon...it kinda of boring in the bank...onli for the 1st and 2nd dae onli...the first 2 dae, i juz sit at the counter and stare at my shifu's com and daydream as usual....haha...totally dun understand wat they r doing at all...the 3rd dae, i went to follow a relationship office instead of siting at the counter and stare blankly, nt noeing anything...the relationship officer tt i follow is call rennie...she is quite nice to mi, she kinda of busy wif her work so the thing tt she can teach mi is limited...after tt went to csa(customer service something, haha can't remember), den oso did nt learn much as they r all busy like hell...i can onli help to photocopy do something updating of staff profile...haha...can say i got easy life there, as the rest r all so busy...the life in bank is so hectic and stress, but i think i shld be able to cope...jia you jia you i can do tis...haha...wat a way to encourage myself...haha...i am becoming quite a goldfish, my manager tell mi something den i will forget after tt...haiz, die liao if like tt...(-_-)muz really do something abt it...buy some pills to help boost my memory...haha...i nxt tue off, haiz can't change it to wed...haiz...but still will be meeting jas they all...cannot dun meet coz it jas birthdae...haha...and i miz miz miz miz them...

report...

2007-04-08T18:50:00.000+08:00

last thurs meet up wif jas to accompany her to sign her contract wif the agnecy...congrats tt jas is working on mon liao...after tt we went to bugis to haf lunch, we had beef noodles...nice, haha when u r hungry everything is nice to u...haha....dine join us in the afternoon to buy pm present..but did nt manage to get the thing tt we decided on initially, hence we decide nt to rush into it...look for it another dae as it is still early...den we head down to tm quene for places for cafe cartle...we sat there from 7 to 8 plus to wait for pm to come from sch...we will hungry so we order a seafood platter to ease our hunger a bit while waiting for pm...we oso brought a small cake for her and we left it wif cafe cartle staff...after she came, den the staff would help us to bring the cake out for us...we manage to give her a surprise...haha...den we sat there and tok till 11 if i am nt wrong...

ydae went for dbs interview at suntec city branch...i think the interview when quite ok...i guess...hope i can start work soon...i reach home like 12 after the interview coz went to sim lim square to buy something...so tired onli slp for 2 hrs the dae b4, i could't slp dun understand y but anyway i always got tt problem so nothing new to mi...went to gen's birthdae party together wf huting...we reach there at 4, help out a bit wif the decoration and we play some game...it was qutie fun there...i left around 7 to meet dine and mel to get pm present...we went to orchard shop to the shop close...after tt dine suggested to go cinleisure...we shop around for awhile den we went to xin wang cafe to had something to eat and oso to chill out...we sat there till 2 den we left...haha...after tt we took nitez owl bus home...reach home 3.25 like tt...den bath and went to slp at 4...tt all folks....haha...

celebration for 2nd runner up...

2007-04-01T13:39:00.000+08:00

ydae, went to eat dinner at boat quay wif cheermates(onli the seniors)...we initally decide on going to pasta fresca but the service there is nt gd...as they refused to join the tables for us insists tt we sit separately...we got 12 pple wif us, if sit separately den it defeat the purpose for us....as it is nt onli to celebrate oso to gather and tok...so we move on and settle at sizzling rock instead, as previously on samantha birthdae we had our celebration there...the food there is nt bad there...the service is better den the pasta fresca as they join the tables together the moment we told them we got 12 pple...uncle sam foot the bill for us, i think it cost him a bomb...haha...it cost him 400 bucks heard from pm...hahaha...but i haf a card tt entitle for 10% discount so lend my card to uncle sam, help him save some money but it onli help him save 40 bucks...haha...it did nt help much...after the dinner, we wanted to go sahara(it a pub) to chill out but they r a lot of pple as there is scoccer match going on...so again we move on...we went to clarke quay marrakan...the coach(akane san) and her frenz is joining us, hence uncle sam is joining us too...as usual in drinking area, i will order beer...and it my first time sesaing(if i am nt wrong it sound something like tt to mi)it is actually similiar to smoking but instead of tobacco, it uses water and characol..and it had flavouring too...the flavouring parts sound new to mi as i did nt noe tt smoking still got flavours one...they order peach mint and apple mints...out of curious, i try both flavours...it my first time see smoke coming out of my mouth...as i see the smoke coming out of my mouth, it sudden dawns to mi tt if tis sesaing was intro to mi much earlier, i might pick it up if i was much younger...dun worry i say might onli...i will nt take up smoking as it is nt cool and it make mi part wif my money more, will nt take up such hobbies...after the chilling out, we decided to go clubbing at some mama club(it more for indians)...akane san's frenz say she got something on tml so she had to leave but akane san is joining us,if akane san is joining us uncle sam is oso going wif us...uncle sam drove pm and akane san to withdraw money as they dun have cash wif them...so the rest of us walk, the rest of us include dee dee, kamini, mun, mi and shu hong...dee dee told us tt cafe iguana had a chocolate shots and at 12am it will like 4 bucks each....so we decide to go to the loo and wait till 12am for the drinks...i order chocolate mints shots(let mi explain, the drink contain chocolate, mint and tequilla, so it alcoholic)...the drink is nice and sweet but it had the buring sensation tt alcohol shld haf,really nice...and we did a video b4 we all drink it up...haha...the whole gathering is like full of photos and videos shots...we r the last to arrive at the club, it was nt really crowded...we dance to the music and let loose...the gd thing is the entry is free, u onli need to pay if u drink...the drinks there the alcohol content is nt strong, so nt really tt bad...i personally like tis club better den m.o.s althought it has more indians but it ok as we come in a group...we dance to our cheerleading national song(everybody dance now, tokyo drift)...hahaha...i had a lot of fun ydae...we left at 2 plus and i reach home around 3...on my way walking back to my hse, i was thinking tt ydae i was really a bad ger, as i smoke and drink todae, suddenly i was kinda of shock and scared by the thoughts of it...tis is kinda of scary tt if ever tt i was to turn bad it will be really bad kind i mean the extreme type...omg...really enjoy myself to the fullest ydae(i did nt mean the somking part)...haha...i see u guys on thurs at school...love u guys...

last weekends...

2007-03-26T15:26:00.000+08:00

24/mar

the dae for my cheerobics(nationals for cheerleading)...went to sch early in the morning around 8.30...todae is my last training for my entire cheerleading life and it my graduation cememory for cheerleading too...we spend our time doing timing and counting, last of all we did twice the whole routine...and we had to prepare to go plaza sing...at 12.50 is our dry run, everything seems to be fine at that time...den we went to change into out uniform at level 5 toliet, seriously speaking, the toliet is invaded by blazers...hahaha...we conquered the toliet...haha...after the changing, i and yam went to carrefour to get drinks and bread for the whole groups of us...while waiting for our turn, raj's sis did stars on our face, it look nice and cool...some of my frenz and seniors came down to support us,pple like ted,lip,vin,sharon,sheeren,shida,daniel,shokoh...finally it our turn, my final exam for cheerleading...start to get a bit nervous b4 i went onto the mats...the exam start and it onli last for 3 mins and 20 secs...we fell 3 times and it all the major stunts...but at least we did not hit the floor that much...but i was kind of sad and disappointed tt we did not make it...i start to think tt we cannot make it for top 3 liao and started to tear...as tis is my last nationals i dun wish it end like tis...i was really sad but i stop tearing...the coach told us tat she happy to take on our team even though we r nt really very commited(nt everyone), she still bring us through all tis...and our coach keep crying during the speech and katini too keep crying...katini had see us through our rough patch and to wat we r nw...after all the speech, we r juz on time for the results, we miss all the our group routine...i actually can kind of feel tt the coach is disappointed, we all r too...nvm abt tt, at tt moment all i hope is at least get the sunshine award...after the presenting the sunshine award to kr steppers, my heart sank...i was thinking to myself "oh god, we did nt even make it for the sunshine awards(best spritis award)"...the mc start to announced the 2nd runners up...and we heard blazers our name...OH MY GOD, can u believe tis...i was stunned for a while and the whole team start hugging each other and jump abt in joy, and i juz hug anyone beside mi and started crying out loud(yes i mean out loud)...i dun noe y but at tt moments, i juz keep crying out, juz like i finally can release all my emotions,cry until i headache...den we run across to grab our coach and start hugging her and jumping in joy...when we gain back our compose,den we reliese tt we r in the middle of the place and the 2nd and 1st place had nt announce yet...it onli den we went back to our seats together wif the coach...haha...inova jc share 2nd runners up together wif us...haha...1st runners up is kr steppers...finally the champion is ntu aces...after all the awards giving, we were dismissed...we totally went wildand crazy, still hugging each others shouting "we finally make it"...after all the craziness, we came to realize that we won nee ann poly, first time in history....hahaha...after all the photo session, we went to pizza hut for dinner...the dinner is to celebrate us winning 2nd in standard charter...after dinner we saw gladis, it been so long tt we last see her...so happy she still remember mi...haha...thanz pple for coming down to see us...the 2nd runners up medal embark my graudation form cheerleading...after the dinner went to mel's birthdae chalet...get to noe mel's cousins...there is one cousins tt our group quite like her, she call zhiyun(if i nt wrong it sounds like tis to mi)...haha...she is quite on and willing to play and keep us entertain...haha..she is so cute...i am too tired to play wif her...so i see jas and dine playing wif her...juz by seeing them i can laugh my hearts out liao...haha...the 3 of them so cute...if got chance we can meet and go play together...haha...we did not get to tok much den we went to slp liao...the reason to y we can't tok much onli it among ourselves...haha...

25/mar

we woke up quite early around 7 plus...after we freshen up ourself, we start our photo taking session again...haha...it is wat we usually do when we get together...dine did a book for mel...it consists of the photos we took together wif her...she spend a long time looking for it as we hide it behind the mirror...she took a long time becoz she did nt go touching around...haha...she afraid something will fly out of the things she touches...haha...she so cute lo...haha...there is no fly or coachroaches flying towards u...as we r scared of them too...haha...we went to mac for breakfast, we sit at mac cafe instead of mac itself as there is nt space...as usual we r the loudest one there...when we gather together we tok a lot and laugh a lot...really love u guys to core...after the breakfast, mel send us home...it my first time siting in the car she drive...she is a steady driver..keep it up mel...when we were walk to the car and dine say tis 'after 10 yr, if we open a chalet again will each of us drive one car each, and we will meet upon the place we agree on'...after she finish her sentence, i think it is kinda of cool to do it although it might waste petrol...i had been wondering wat will we be like after 10 yrs...after i reach home, bath and head straight to bed...as i did not slp well the dae b4...

holidae nw...

2007-03-07T01:21:00.000+08:00

i sort of consider hafing sch holidae...haf to wait for till nxt week for results....i oso same like jas prepare for the worst...haiz...this 2 dae staying at home gonna drive mi crazy soon...so i will find my chance to sneak out of the hse if possible...i dun noe y but i dun really like staying at home...i always want to get out of the hse, be it alone or wif frenz shopping, juz want to get out...i getting bored..very bored...someone save mi from the boring life i lead...it is killing mi slowly...argh...ya ya, jen going crazy liao...juz finish my cheerleading training a few hrs back, nw super tired but dun want to turn in early, coz i turn in early meaning i will wake up early...waking early meaning i will spend my morning doing nothing,doing nothing lead to boring...anyway got to go to the doctor tml, coz my back aches and it in pain too...haha...i guess is the fall i had few dae back...clusmy old mi...pm oso fall down, den my senior slip and send himself falling off the bike...haiz...y my frenz and i keep falling...my junior(frances) say tt i pass the falling virus to them...haha...if it is so den pls keep away from mi, as it is culd be fatal...hahahaha...i am mad.....going to bath liao, to wake myself up...haha...ciaoz...

finish my exam...

2007-03-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

finally finish my exam liao...went out wif dine, pm and jas...i last min drag jas out to meet us...i think we had not meet jas for like around one mth...miz her so much...after exam went to do manicure again, but tis time round i pay others to do for mi...spend like 28 bucks...a bit ex becoz i did nail art too...but the nail art wasn't done nicely...a bit waste of money, nxt time dun do nail art there liao...after the manicure, went to gao ji to eat...i and pm had spicy seafood ramen...hmm, it nice...after tt meet dine and jas...surprisingly, dine did not came late...haha...keep up the gd work dine..haha...den we went to bugis, as there is some sales going on...we walk to suntec to take bus down to ps...when walk down to suntec, i slip and fall again...haha..my reaction made my frenz stun...and beside i was shock by myself...haha...when i fall and land on my butt, i sat there a while looking shocked which i did felt tt way...after tt den i climb up and moan...it hurts man...but i was laugh at my own clumsiness...it is nt my first time anyway, i dun felt embrassing...haha...i am so clusmy...i am totally fine wif mi falling down in front of my dardars...haha...den we head down to ps, as esprirt got 50% discount dun tell u the reason y...haha...it onli among us(my dardars)...pm and dine brought all of things...let mi see...pm brought 3 top, one for her bf mr spencer...haha...a gd gf she is...wahaha....den dine brought 2 top and one jeans...one of the top is for her bf qin kai...there r 2 lucky man to haf such gd gf looking after them...u guys better treat my dardars well if nt i will be running after u guys...haha...jas oso brought one tee...i did not buy any thing as nothing caught my eye...sorry i am one fussy person when it come to clothes...haha...we had jap food for dinner...nice(anything is nice to mi when it is jap food...haha...)i was so bloated by the end of our dinner...den we went to pm hse for a short chat...den head home for a early night...i reach home at 11.30...wow the earliest night out...haha...even earlier den the pervious time...haha....

update finally...

2007-02-26T17:52:00.000+08:00

so a bit slow in my update...i nw den i reliase tt blogger use gmail to log in...haha...pai seh...so long did not update...busy plus lazy...let mi see wat i did tis few weeks...starting from 31 of jan...wow tt was almost 1 mths ago...haha...

31/jan

after lesson went for badmination in sch wif jas & mel...after tt went to design sch and eat malay food which mel and i was craving for...haha...after lunch, jas went home to put her bag...den mel came to my hse, as i promise her to help her iron her hair....haha...i enjoy the whole process while ironing her hair...i love to help my frenz to look beautiful...they say i can open a shop for hair, makeup and manicure...haha...after tt is shopping time, we went to bugis v to shop and meet dine for dinner...did not really buy a lot of things...

19/feb

chinese new yr dae 2, all the cousins i had came to my hse for 'party'...so happy tt we can get together again...i help wif the killing of crabs, washing them which my granny say i am quite gd wif...haha...the cooking part leave it to the adults, as i still haf not master the skills to cook the crabs...my cousin and i intend to go ktv one but they nv open so forget it...and i caught hold of my kor kor's wife to let mi do manicure and nail art for her and she let me do...so happy...i meet pei ming and her sony frenz for moive...we watch epic moive, it suck totally...dun noe y yen like it so much..it not worth my $9.5...after tt we went to some bar for a drink...i drink a bottle of beer onli and ate a cake...the cake was nice...like 2 plus we left the bar...sad to say fall down the stair, but was hurts badly, lucky it is onli a bit tear of the skin...but the worst thing came after my fall...after the fall, i sat down and check if i sprain my leg, lucky i did not...after tt i stand up and walk to the main enterance of the bar...i start to feel that i am floating in the air, seeing a lot of white dots...b4 i can really tell i am not feel well, it turns pitch black in fornt of mi...i could not see a thing at all but i am very sober onli feel like i am floating...oh gosh, i nv feel or experience any thing like tis b4..even though i haf faint spells...they say i look ghostly pale...well i can't see myself but i can feel tt it is not very ritez...and i noe i am not drunk at all...i swear i am not drunk, as 1 bottle of beer is not enough to knock mi out...

20/feb

i went to doreen hse todae...eat a lot of thing but i did not dare to drink beer... i was scared by ydae incident or to say freak out by myself...we chat for quite long as we had not meet each other for quite long...pauline was late so she was punish wif 3 cans of beer...haha...it was my idea, i can't drink so she help mi drink my share..haha...i drink a lot of soup which was cook by doreen's mother...it was nice, i simply cannot resist it...haha...i am one true cantonese...haha...i juz love to drink soups...after tt i went to meet pei ming and dine for ktv session...haha...tt another thing i love...haha...we went home at around 11 plus...it was my earliest time when i reach home at 12...haha...normally i reach home at 2 or 3 am in the morning...i sound like so bad ger tt always hang out late, well tt mi...haha...

23/feb

went to east coast for some event held by ming xuan's 'company'...it was some bbq event, a bit old sch...haha...the ger was having a toking session on the second floor...thing like self intro, how we had been 'cheated' to go for the event...haha...i make some new frenz there who oso share the same craziness as mi...to say it was quite boring at first...but they later had some performance like singing sessions, fashion show...ok...the fashion show onli consist of one person...he make himself into a ger wif very short shorts wif black stockling and wear v-neck t-shirt wif fake boobs....haha...he almost make mi puke...haha..thanz god i did not eat much...haha...but it was quite funny...so i did enjoy myself there...and one more thing to tell u guys, it a bit lame for the sir to give tis punishment....if the guys do not bring a ger along wif them, they will get confinement....lame ritez but it works on them...after the event went to watch moive 'norbit'...it was a nice moive, really like it a lot...quite funny...u guys shld go and watch it...went to starbuck as we had one hr b4 the moive...i had green frapp, influence by dine...it nice but a bit too sweet...and tt dae did not spend much money as ming xuan paid for most of the things...i actually dun really like tt...i dun like my frenz to paid for mi, make mi feel so bad...i try to push the money to him but can't win him den forget it...

24/feb

pm and dine came to my hse to xiang my mum bai nian...we went for dinner after tt...we did not eat sakae sushi...surprise ritez if u read my blog u will noe when we gather together we always go sakae...we went to gao ji for ramen instead...it was nice, it very hongkong style...i love it...went to cartle for chit chat...b4 chit chat session, we went to take photos...we did a lot of funny pose...haha...the pic is onli meant for my dardars to see...haha...and i got to noe something tt made mi very angry...dine had tis frenz called judy which(use which instead of who is becoz i dun consider her as human...*evil laughter*) i really dun like her...i dun like her becoz she treated dine very badly, always bully her...dine is someone who is very soft and kind so always kana bully by her...ok back to the something i noe...tt judy use my tis fashion card for discount without my consent...i noe it sound like a small thing but becoz i dun like her it became a big thing to mi...i am fine wif my frenz or my frenz's frenz to use my card for discount but not her...hate her....DISLIKE HER....i will discontinue my card after it expire will not renew again...

ok..i finish my update liao...a very long one...

shopping

2007-01-29T13:33:00.000+08:00

went shopping wif my gers frenz ydae...we went to city plaza, a great place to go for gers if they want cheaper clothes...the clothes there r same or similar to bugis and orchard area but they r much cheaper den in town area...i got a jeans skirt, and a red vest tt i like a lot...finally i settle my cny clothes liao but left wif shoe onli...i wanted to buy boots, but i was forbi to buy by pm and mel...like tt i would settle for heels den...no choice haha...

wat card r u?

2007-01-25T12:52:00.000+08:00

You are The Wheel of Fortune
Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of intoxication with success
The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

finally blogging

2007-01-24T18:29:00.000+08:00

well let mi see...i had nt been blogging since the 1st week of jan, nw is like the 2nd last week of jan, so for haf a mth, i had nt been blogging...haha...2 week ago, we were at dine hse...we made salad,nuggets at her hse...i enjoy my tai tai gathering wif them, i simply love been together wif them, doing funny and crazy thing together(like taking some lame and crazy photo in the loo...haha)we took a lot of pic when we gather together but mainly is those pic tt cannot be see by others...haha...tt a secert btw us...shhh...despite eating at dine hse when we left, we still when to eat sake sushi...i find tt when we gather together,we will sure go to sake sushi...haha...it ok for mi as i love the food there...but the dae ended very fast for us...the nxt gathering for us is 28 of jan...looking forward to it man...left wif 3 week den cny will come...i still had 1 set of clothes to settle...during the cny week, it my study week...sad...i got 3 subject to go for...i end my paper at 1st of mar, until den i am free...i think i can made it for my exam tis time...i understand all my subject better nw...but after i graduate, i will look for jobs first but i had not idea of wat job to look for...haiz...tt all for todae...

Happy New Year

2007-01-01T19:52:00.000+08:00

happy new yr guys...how can i nt blog on tis special tt embark my brand new yr...for the new yr countdown instead of doing it at town...we went to ktv at hougang as here is not place and the right timing for us in town or east area...it like nothing special, if u read my blog u will noe tt i always go kbox...haha...we meet at 3 to go parkway as i was late so we miz the bus...after we reach parkway, split into 2,the chopstick(philip and vincent...as they always stick together and they r tall and slim, so it made them look like chopstick...haha...opps), den i and pm go cut hair, dun worry i did not cut my hair onli pm cut hers, as u noe i dun haf the hair for mi to cut even if i want to...den we went to meet ted at compass point(his workplace), had mos burger for dinner a bit sinful i noe...haha...fattening but too bad i ate it liao....den proceed to hougang...and finally they show mi the bleach ds game...made mi feel like buying ds and play lo...but tt i will mi look more like a guy as vin oready call mi ah boy liao...but i juz like bleach a lot mah...sorry lip i did not meant to laugh tt hard at u...i am laughing nt becoz u r afraid of balloon, i am laugh becoz of ur reaction towards the balloon, it damn funny lo....lolz...i think we left around 2 plus 3...and dine is in hospital but she is fine now...thanz god...take care of urself dine...last of all Happy New Yr guys, thanz for bring all the joy and happiness to mi and as well as sharing urs wif mi and thanz for being there for mi when i needed u guyd...A gd yr ahead for u guys...i love u guys(u noe who u r)...

last week report...

2006-12-27T13:51:00.000+08:00

mon(18/12)

meet up wif dine and went for movie as i haf 2 free ticket from m1...the title of the movie is the night at the museum...it is a quite funny, the plot oso quite nice...

fri(22/12)

meet up wif mel,jas, dine and pm for dinner at pastamania den went for movie again...haha...but tis time watch the curse of the golden flower...i dun understand the storyline and if not for yuan xiang, jay might win...the whole style for jay in the movie is damn ugly lo...does not suit him...although the movie is not nice but enjoy the company of them as they always bring mi a lot of laughter...thanz guys...

sun(24/12)

Christmas eve, tis yr not ktv session but instead it is movie session...haha...i had seen 3 movies in 1 week...cool ritez but behind the cool part, i am broke...haha...we went to fish and co for dinner den wait for philip to come in the meanwhile...den after the dinner, we went to starbuck...our usual hangout place....sit there and tok or rather listen to story and at the same time wanting to kill vincent....haha...tt is wat happen when u put mi beside vincent...haha...we always so drama(tt is wat pm say abt us)...ted still the same usual hi, still lame but funny...everytime we laugh is nt becoz of his lame joke, we laugh becoz of his reactions....haha...he is very comical...the movie tt i saw is death note 2...we watch it at the strike of 12....the story a bit draggy, almost doze off at some part...i still prefer the death note den death note 2...but i enjoy my myself tt dae...thanz guys...

gers nitez out....(finally)

2006-12-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

went to kbox wif melissa, geraldine and pm...a bit sad tt jas can't make it...i meet mel at 12.40 but i was late...haha...den we reach parkway at 1.30 had our lunch den went to kbox and meet pm as she after work...we starting singing at 14:14 to around 20:30...super long hrs...haha...sing until tired...oh and dine u sound like sun yan zi lo....dun deny it...super xiang...after the ktv,we went to sake sushi for dinner, back to tamp cartel for toking...we did a lot of stupid thing in the ktv...took a lot of act cute pic...haha...but it not for posting tt onli among us...haha...so happy and i enjoy my dae...looking forward to fri...meeting them and jas tis time round...go gers...

thur nite out...

2006-12-11T19:05:00.000+08:00

last thurs meet my poly frenz i did not see them for quite a long time liao...and got to noe yr 1 sem 1 poly frenz is married at the age of 20...so young ritez...hope she is happy and blessed wif her new marriage life...her marriage is arrange by her family( can u believe it, arrange marriage in tis daes...), nvm as long as she is happy can liao...shocking news from them...i onli manage to meet adeline and kenny...kenny having his 13 dae leave like most of my army frenz( u noe who u r...haha...), ask him wat did he do in his camp...quite funny but almost the same as lip they all...haha...the most funny and cute thing i hear from him is they catch the rat and tie a rope to the rat neck and 'walk' the rat...haha...funny idea rite...but tt wat kenny will do...haha...after meeting kenny and ade, den meet lip,ted and vin...erm i felt a bit force by vin to meet...haha...but still meet them...after finish their dinner, we went to arcade to play house of the dead as usual...den go to the game shop to check out some game...after tt went to s-11 to drink while waiting for pm to come after work, meanwhile they continue to tok abt their army life...after went back to tm, actually wanted to watch open season...but change of plan went starbuck instead(drink again...bladder gonna burst...haha...jk...)we did not meet pm as she is very tired...we sit at starbuck and tok abt bleach, gaming and crap...haha...ted is still ad lame as b4...but tis time round after he finish his lame thing, he will say if pm here she will scold him...haha...den he will demo how pm will react to his lame thing...haha tis make him more funny...haha...

cheer camp

2006-12-11T19:02:00.000+08:00

had my cheer camp last weekend...as usual stunts training and doing up our banner last min like i say as usual...haha...nothing much to say for the camp...and we got second for standard charater...but i am not surprise and happy, or to say not much feeling...

birthdae bash...

2006-12-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

fri (24/11)

i went to orchard wif my poly frenz to haf dinner...i eat the prata there, it quite nice it not tt oily as compare to the rest tt i eaten b4...it affortablr price for poor student like mi...but aniwae i did not pay a single cent for the dinner ad doreen's bf foot the bill...thanz la adrian for ur treat...althought a bit cannot tahan u...haha...no harm to towards u, juz the things u say a bit lame den i thought u would...haha...i meet up wif u guys after my term test again...

sat(25/11)

meet up wif my usual gang philip they all...we had our late lunch at yoshinuya....i had terriyai chicken bowl...nice...we brought a philip a shirt for him as bdae present, coz we dun noe wat to buy for him...after tt we shopping, as pm want to look for some office wear...as it will be boring for the guys so splilt up...at around 5.30 plus, we took bus down to suntec to meet thomas they all...and i finally saw ger who pm say tt she look like dine...but from wat i see i dun think she look like dine lei...but she is quite cute(dun worry dine i am not saying tt u r nt cute....haha...)we went looking for place to eat dinner...first time had 9 pple having dinner together...cool...but i and pm did nt haf dinner due to the late lunch we had....but we did order a mudpie(chocolate ice cream with oreo cookies base...yummy...), it nice but we could not finish we shld had share 1 instead, did not noe it will be tt big...ted, lip had sandwhich; wai,vin had dun noe is lamp chop or chicken chop...i try ted sandwhich, it so nice wif the melted cheese(ooo....fave...)...after dinner we went to kbox for singing session(ooo...how i miz it...)i and yen celebrate our birthdae at the strike of tweleve, they sing birthdae song for us...so happy, thanz guys...and onli todae den i noe yen had the same birthdae as mi...thomas gt quite nice voice when he sing you hong ming songs, althought a bit old...yen keep drinking his beer, den did not sing any songs...so we force him to sing lemon tree, haha...so old sch... but after the lemon tree he did sing some other songs, so it still work after all...haha...we sing until 2 am plus..haha...and last but not least, Thank my ger frenz for ur present, a bit shock to see tt but it something very new...haha...THANK GUYS...

cookies...

2006-10-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

todae went to pm's hse to bake cookies and help melissa dye her hair, the effect of it was still ok lo...the roots a bit light den not really very even, but it is not very obvious...we at 10.30 at tamp centeral to buy all the things we need...den reach pm's hse at 11.17am...after we help melissa dyed her hair and here come geraldine finally...haha...juz kidding dine...we made mango pudding too...so we start off our toking and baking session...it was quite fun...feel so comortable and blessed wif u guys...but this time round jasmine did not join us...but nvm there is always nxt time...the nxt round we can try baking pineapples tart, shld be quite fun...we went to sake sushi for dinner and went shopping around in tm and cs...i enjoy my dae wif them and tml sch is reopening...wat a sad case ritez...i still haven graduate...during the holidae, i still wondering wat shld do after graduation, it look i dun need to think abt it for the nxt like haf a yr ba...haha...but it may be a blessing in disguise...i dun noe...

vivo city...

2006-10-23T01:49:00.000+08:00

went to vivo city wif vincent they all...there is really nothing much and not all the shop r open but guess wat there is a lot of pple...we juz walk around and haf a look, b4 we decide to watch movie...we brought the ticket to watch death note at tm...real cute ritez...haha...went to vivo city but catch the moive at tm...the ticket r brought using the axn machine outside the vivo city's cinema...u can tell how cute we ritez by now....haha...and by the way vincent is going into the army on 26 of oct...god bless him man...haha...all the best and take care kok kok tao...haha...looking forward to meet u when u book out wif ur almost botoak head...haha...

中秋快乐

2006-10-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

the mooncake pic is taken from xiao tung blog...it look so nice, it muz be delicious(drool)..belated 中秋快乐...sorry for being late...tis few dae the haze is terrible...it kinda of affecting mi..but dun worry guys i put on a mask at home to protect myself...hee...look a bit weird...will take pic for u guys to see...haha...i haven been doing nothing at home tis whole holiday...i nt working juz laze around at home or go window shopping wif my frenz or alone...i sound so loner ritez...haha...can't help my frenz all working,yes i am complaining...haha..juz kidding...but sometimes i perfer to be alone...i noe pm will say i am too much alone most of the time...but i dun noe y but some how i quite like it and enjoy it...maybe i am a freak ba...haha...oh and i had to stay one more sem in sch...dun ask mi if i am ok or nt...as i had not feeling to tt...haha...sort of numb ba...i finish watching bleach liao...haiz, tt is to mean i had nothing to do at home liao...oh my god, tis is torturing man...got nothing to do is nt gd...go window shopping cannot buy is oso a torture for mi..haiz, as i need new clothes for my closet...so sad...tis is my first holidae tt i am not working...working is still the best, got income, kill time and can make new frenz...sianz...growing fungus at home...

malaysia trip

2006-10-05T15:33:00.000+08:00

went to malaysia last sun, went there shopping...brought i alot of thing back...nothing much happen...

sentosa trip

2006-10-05T14:58:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa last sat wif lip,ted,vin,wai and pm...our purpose for sentosa trip is to tan and play beach volleyball...but it rained like hell man...spoil our plan...haiz...been caught in the rain for quite awhile b4 we decided to walk in the rain look for toliet to bath and go back to habourfront...and u noe the shit thing is tt i forget to bring towel to bath and extra top to change...i am all wet wif no top to change, y i so blur one...haiz...thanz god ted got jacket,so i borrow his...but it is super weird to bring jacket to sentosa...haha...anyway thanz god he brought it...haha...after the sentosa trip we went to have steamboat for dinner...it was fun to be wif them, they r really funny lo...they r getting more and more lame since i last meet them...and philip is going in to army soon...wish him all the best...

shopping wif dear

2006-08-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

todae meet pm,jas and mel for shopping since i got my pay...we went to bugis and suntec city...we went to starbuck, we sit there and tok...i help jas and pm to paint their nails, and did nail art for pm too...so happy tis is the first time i did a full nail plus nail art for my frenz...after tt, we went to suntec city and got the nail polish remover to do away the excess nail polish for them as i can't stand the excess nail polish on their finger, i want the thing i do to be as perfect as possible...i finally had a fake nails up on my finger tt i long for it...but after putting on the fake long nails, i find tt there r a lot of thing i can't do or maybe not used to it ba...i can't msg, wondering how to take out my contact lens with such long nails make mi headache..haha...by at least i manage to type onli to be a bit slow...

sam li sheng jie's concert

2006-08-17T21:52:00.000+08:00

todae when for sam li sheng jie's concert wif pm and patrick...the concert was great, his voice really moved mi to the max man...every single song makes mi want to cry, dun worry i am fine juz his songs is quite sad...sam is a bit lame and he pronounce our school name wrongly but he is willing to say sorry..haha, he muz be damn pai sei la...haha...he ask us to sing his song and he will rate which section of seats is better, and guess wat my section was rated the first by him...haha...when it was abt to end, he went around shaking hands and sing at the same time...he is the first singer i saw tt is willing to walk the whole hall to shake hands of his fans...and i manage to shake his hands, so happy...and he can throw his poster very far to the first few row of the back seats...cool, tis show tt is he really train hard for his tennis and swimming in order to get such a strong arm man...really love his song to bits...i noe he is not handsome but i really like him a lot and of coz his songs too...really admired his talents and his voice...

the email tt jas send mi..

2006-08-14T16:54:00.000+08:00

Ash Tree (Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

tis is whole thing is simply juz mi except for the extremely attractive, the rest is so true...as for the intelligent and talented part i will leave it to u guys and decide..juz wanted to put it in as it sounds like mi...haha...

fun...

2006-08-13T13:37:00.000+08:00

finally, i get to go cycling...i love cycling...most important is tt i am wif my darlings..east cost is quite big as it take us 1 and haf hr to cycle from one end to other...cycling on a sat at east coast, u need to be very skillful as there r full of pple...we found a ski park, it so cool but a bit x...i wanted to play but not all my gf can swim so i think i need to find someone else to go wif mi for the ski park...i wanted to try wakeboarding so much...had a fun dae wif my darling, we meet mel for dinner as she dun want to go cycling...love to be in their company, as usual i had been the noise one..toking and toking is my strength, at the same time my weakness too...as i keep toking be it if u want to listen to mi or not...haha...so self centered...haha...for tis i will try to change it will take some time or maybe longer as when i start toking i will be totally engossed into it...

Saw tis in one of my email, and find it meaningful:
Work like you don't need the money,
love like you've never been hurt, (tis is to all my gf, at some point of time in life we will get hurts be it if we want it or not...but dun be afraid to fall in love again...i noe it easier say den done...as i am oso scared to fall in love again as i noe it is hurtful and scary at tis point of time but i will overcome it and love again)
and dance like you do when nobody's watching."

to my darlings(as there r 4 of them)...

2006-08-12T01:24:00.000+08:00

A Friend... is a tissue when you can't stop crying
A Friend... is a shoulder when you feel like dying
A Friend... always listens when you have something to say
A Friend... is a week when you need a day
A Friend... is a crutch when you have a broken heart
A Friend... is some glue when everything falls apart
A Friend... is a sun when the rain just won't stop
A Friend... is a phone call when you can't leave your home
A Friend... is a hand when you feel all alone
A Friend... is a wing if you want to fly
A Friend... understands without knowing why
A Friend... is an ear for a secret to tell
A Friend... is an aspirin when your head hurts like hell
A Friend... is a love that can never let go
A Friend... is you,and i wanted you to know!!
In our FRIENDSHIP..there might be commas..but never a full-stop..and I hope..
A FRIENDSHIP between you 'n' me is For A Lifetime

dardar,i want u to noe u guys rocks my world, wif out u guys i will not be the same again...i love u guys and i mean it...we had been through 7 yrs of friendship to where we r now...in nxt 3 yr, we will have our 10th anniversary hold to celebrate our 10 yrs friendster...hope we will always be frenz till we became old ladies...

ydae perfromance...

2006-08-06T12:59:00.000+08:00

Blazers had a performance ydae at near eunos mrt station...tis is the first the juniors r perfromance together wif us...everything went well except the teddy bear did not went up...but the table top and 2-2-1 was very stable...and our movement r neater den b4 which is a gd thing...after tt we went to mac to have a late dinner...after our dinner and celebration, back to the performance area as we need to put the mats back to skool...we sat there chatting and gossiping wif katini while waiting for the truck to come at 11...haha enjoy the chat and everything...after tt raj arrive and drive us to skool to keep the mats and the drums...den we send katini to parkway first den we go home....on our way home, we took the wrong turn and end up at some ulu place called paya lebar air base(where my ex server his ns, nw den i noe...haha...wat a joke...)...it is very quiet there, pm is scared...haha...she scared and we call her coward so mean of us...but pm dun worry in singapore when u get lost, u can always find way out as there r road signs everywhere...so if u ever get lost dun panic or scared be calm and find ur way out...becoz the worst and the last thing to do when u r lost is to panic, coz u will lose ur judement...be brave pm...

feelings

2006-08-04T01:30:00.000+08:00

todae training had a lot of tension going on while we do stunts...i juz suddenly notice tt pple r very easily affected by the pple around them...when one person is tense up, soon or later everyone start to get tense up too...should i say it a link between us or we r weak so tt will be easily affected...haiz, recently had been sad...when i get sad and start to stone, my frenz around mi will start to stone or sad too...haiz...gfs when u guys had problem pls pls come to us...we will always be there...dun worry u will not trouble us and u noe wat i love ur troubling or pestering...u r like a family to us, when family tok to each other we dun feel trouble or anything...instead we feel happy tt we can share ur trouble or problem wif even we might not be able to help...we will always be there for u coz we r ur family and frenz...we will always love u...and hope u noe who i am toking abt...hahaha...gtg liao...byebye...*back ache and thumb pain* i am the accident prone chairwoman i hereby declare frances to join my club...haha...

the email my frenz send to mi....

2006-08-01T23:25:00.000+08:00

The problems with GUYS:
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him; (it not always the case depend on pple, dun assmue tt u noe us well when u r not)
If u?Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him; (we dress up is not becoz of u guys is for ourself, pls dun be to sure of urself guys)
If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS. (tt will nv happen on mi, coz i am so talkative)
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE; (well tt ur problem not our us, juz too bad...)
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u. (it very true on my case)
If u don't make love with him, he says u don't Love him;
If u do it, he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him; (sometime u guys juz need to be scolded to wake up ur ideas so it a need)
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u. (sometime it might be the case, but most of the time it not...)
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so. (tis is bullshit)
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN. (tis is worst den bullshit, u stink...haha...)
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!! & sooo hard to please!!!!!

i wonder wat is wrong wif tis guys...but i am sure tt not all guys r like tt...i hope so..haha...

update

2006-08-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

juz wan to vent my feeling here...i broke up wif my bf...i noe some of u guys dun noe abt it, i thought after we r stable den tell u guys but it over liao...i admit tt i am sad, i dun deny...like wat mel say all we need is time...i strongly believe tt LORD will lead mi through tis sorrow and made mi grow into a better person...sorry if i juz broke down out of nowhere...i am trying hard to control my tears but it juz does not listen to mi anymore, it feel tt the eyes r not mine...sorry gfs, i noe i am putting a brave front when i am wif u guys...like wat mel say i dun want u all to worry for mi..if i cry in front of mel, i think it will made her feel worst...but...i noe i lost the smile, laughter,bubbly,crappy old mi...Help me....sorry jasmine i can't cheer u up now..sorry...mel i dun noe wat to say to u to made u feel better...sorry....

last week report

2006-07-19T10:38:00.000+08:00

mon(10/7) & tues(11/7)
nothing on the two dae, as usual cheerleading training...

wed(12/7)
meet dear for lunch, den went to my grandma's hse to see her and my sis...at 6.30 meet my group of honeys(jas,dine,mel and pm), had a long chit chat session...tt wat girls do when they gather together...after the chit chat session, we go shopping...i and my honeys brought kids perfume either for ourselve or for their bf...i love being in their company and i love them too...

thurs(13/7)
training as usual, and had a long dae in sch...

fri(14/7)
i finally can stay at home and rest...enjoy the feeling of stay at home, once in the while....if everydae ask mi to stay at home, i think i will die...

sat(15/7)
meet philip,vincent, ted and pm for movie....i meet pm first as she end her work at 1,den meet the guys at 3.30, but they r late...we watch superman returns,quite a nice show,not bad...after the guys went for dinner at kfc, i and pm had to leave early as we meeting our cheermates for dinner at boat quay...we meet up wif our cheer mates and we crap and tok rubbish till 9 plus 10, den we went over to m.o.s...i didn't really get to drink in the club and it is damn crowded...had problem getting in the dancefloor...haiz, but still manage to get in at the end...i left at 2.40 as i was not feeling well...

sun(16/7)
working....nothing but working the whole dae...and oso got to noe tt asfra was transfer to other branch...quite sad...

busy...

2006-07-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

i had been busy wif school, cheer and work...i had no life at all...now training is on mon,tues and thurs...den i working on fri,sat and sun...and tt is to say i only left wif wed to rest or to meet my frenz and go my grandma's hse whenever i free to do so, but wed my frenz is either working or schooling, after school or work they will be too tired to meet mi and i oso to tired to meet them...i miz them so much and dying to noe how are they, how their life, wat they r doing...and dying to let them noe i miz them and how i lead my life so far...want to tell them all my ups and downs and oso wanting to noe all their ups and downs too...time is so little and so many need to be done..haiz y can't haf 48 hrs a day...todae is my opening of push cart...the cart will be on for tml and wed...that oso to mean i will be tired...dears(jasmine,melissa,geraldine, min yen, pei ming), i miz u all badly...

report on wat happen yesterday...

2006-06-13T02:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday, i was question by the new manager of the it dept...shit i dun even noe all the question he ask mi and i mean all...this is worst experience i had since i was a promoter, it can't get any worst...when pple question mi abt my product i can answer all their doubts without fail but i fail this time...i felt so stress and useless tt i almost cried...the feeling sucks, real sucks...i did not have a training for the product before i start work, hence i had very weak product knowlegde...but anyway i am not gonna run away even if he say he will test mi nxt week when i come for work...yes i will throw watever thing i noe back at him to convince him i noe my product i am not slacking at all...i noe i sound very defencesive...but tis one thing tt i will do and will not run away...so dun need to worry guys...i stronger den u think i am...but thank you dario and nelson u guys really help mi a lot since my first dae at work...i feel so lucky tt at least there is someone willing to help mi and guide...dario and nelson told mi tt they got alot of scloding from customer the first 2 month and there is no one to help them...i really pity u guys and thank for helping mi...yesterday dario wasn't free to send mi home as he is meeting his frenz...so nelson my supervisor send mi home on his bike....this was my first time riding on a bike, i always want to ride on a bike as i dun noe how to drive nor any of my frenz ride or own a bike, hence i dun get to try it..but i finally did it...wat can i say....it was total awesome and cool...i love the feeling on the bike so thrilling and fun althought a bit cold...i really love the feeling so much tt i wish i own and ride a bike of my own...i noe my wish will nv come true as my parents will nv agree on tt...haiz...shhh guys dun let my parents noe i ride a bike home...they will kill mi...thanz nelson, thanz you so much for the ride home...i really love tt and once again thanz for all the fun and bumpy ride...really love tt..thanz you so much...

my cousin min yu 21st birthday...

2006-05-26T15:46:00.000+08:00

went to my cousin 21st birthday todae together wif my aunt and cousin minli at around 11 plus am...the chalet was located at aloha changi chalet very ulu there...and a lot of mosqitoes too...went there early to help out wif the deco and pumping the balloon...althougth my cousin did buy pumps as she thought it might help us...but the pumps end up no help at all so we blow the balloon up...there are 100 of them lucky i and minli dun have to blow every one of them if not i think the both of us would had asmnth attack..haha..juz kidding...instead of having a normal and common happy 21st birthday min yu, we did a min yu to power of 21...isn't it cool and special, if u dun agree oso does not matter i and my cousin think i special and most important is my cousin like it...haha...we help her light up the tealight candles on the pavment tt lead to the chalet...by lighting the tealight candles on the pavement it made the pavement look like those red carpet for those stars...but we had a hard time lighting them all up wif the strong wind but we did it...thanz god for tt...my brother and my cousin jun yu did a heartshape fireworks for my cousin min yu(the birthday girl) which i as his sister did not even had tt for my birthday...so jealous..haha..juz kidding...enjoy all the fun we had in the chalet....luz u sis...

cheer outing at sentosa

2006-05-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

when to sentosa todae...there was a lot of clouds instead of sun...we play catching, pulse, whack'o and mother hen and the eagle...it very fun althought i complain abt the pumping for forefeet...we did stuns in the water...we had some toking session in the water too...it was real fun and i noe u guys better and more...and now i noe wat u guys think of mi too...we force simon to do chicky dance for forefeet and mei feng draw a big turtle on simon face...haha...damn funny...we strip samantha off her top when she came down to the water wif her tank top...haha...hope we did not scare u...i think the people near will be think y tis bunch of girl enjoy strip people...haha...i think we are like clowns in the water entertain people wif our stunts and funny actions...haha...but i really enjoy and relax myself...it fun to be wif u guys...to hui ting i will not ask for retirement again...dun worry coz i will be asking for perament leave instead...haha...to my cheermates:( we guys really make mi forget all my troubles and worries when i wif u guys, i love urs' company to...LUZ U GUYS SO MUCH...thank you so much...)

the first scolding from customer...

2006-05-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

todae got my first scolding from my customer...it was partly my fault...i ask alicia wat the different btw AMD and CENTRIO processer...so she told mi tt AMD dun come wif the bulit in wifi but for centrio has it...so i explain to the customer tt wat i heard from alicia...as i go on further, the more i find it weird how can the notebook does not have wifi built in...so i ask dario if there is wifi bulit in the model den he say yes...the moment he say yes, i noe i am dead...so i went over and explain tt i make a mistake earlier...den he started to make a big fuss and say i lie abt the free gifts part which i did not even touch on tt subject...after tt i told dario wat happen he help mi to explain it to them the whole thing is not my fault...thanz dario thank you so much...after tt miscom and scolding for the indian customer i finally understand on my first dae of work dario told mi to keep away from the indian and try not to serve them(not try to be raceist)...nvm now i noe how to deal wif tis kind of customer...got to ciaoz..till nxt post...

third dae at work...

2006-05-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

working todae...my third dae at suntec courts as hp promoter....todae damn tired and not feeling well...having a flu...but taking flu tablets liao...dun worry...everything the same reach there dario started his lame shit...crapping the whole...todae jason is not here but i had a supervisor called nelson..so as usually listening to both of them crapping..but thanz to them i had my time pass faster and happier...i onli manage to sell 2 compaq notebook todae...oh ya my grandma is in hospital but she ok...the onli thing tt worry mi is tt she had very few red blood cells which the doctor say is quite dangerous for her...sorry guys i can't make it to training..but u guys will update mi on wat happen on thurs when we meet on sunday at sentosa...see ya guys...nitez...luz ya...last but not least thanz dario for ur lift home...

first dae of work

2006-05-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

todae is my first dae of work for hp/compaq desktop and laptop...i onli manage to sell 3 v2602 compaq laptop...the it staff in suntec courts are full of crap man...but they a fun group to be wif...although they are very lame and i mean very lame...there is one guy called dario is the joker of suntec courts...he is damn lame and he had very funny expression on his face...i think he enjoy make some laughter out of the boring courts and promoting com...there is oso a guy called Jason, i initially thought he was a quiet person becoz as dario is crapping he juz keep quiet...but after my break i came back he started toking a lot of crap to mi too...i was thinking omg he has a hidden dario in him...so the whole dae i was listening to dario and jason crapping and making fun of other staff...i initially thought the job is gonna be super boring as i dun noe the it staff in courts, but by noeing them it made my dae better...they are really nice people apart from the crapping dun say...i oso noe 2 gal called shue and the other one i dun noe her name, they oso quite nice to mi...but i some how find that they a bit dun like mi although they are quite nice to mi...i somehow find it quite fake or may i too sensitive...i stop here quite tiring standing for 9 hrs...nitez guys...

time to update...

2006-04-29T14:08:00.000+08:00

sch had reopen for a week liao...for the first 3 dae we had cca booth for the sports group tt mean cheerleading is included too...quite tiring for us as we had lesson and oso need to attend to the booth and recuirt new blood into our group...my timetable is pack on mon and thurs...the rest of the dae onli had 2-3 hrs of lesson...but i got 2 dae start on 8 o'clock...quite tiring to crawl up early to go school...i think tt all for todae...ciao...

updates

2006-04-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

haven been updating for a long time...i had been quite busy it seem to mi like 24 hrs is not enough for mi...but the things is i dun noe wat made mi so busy...haha...gtg liao..byebye..

dinner and dance

2006-03-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

tues den decide to go the d&d...so everything was done very last min but still manage to make it to the d&d properly dress...haha...i, mun, lala, pm and clarissa went to the TPSU d&d yesterday...had a really busy dae...i wake up at 8 help my granny wif the clothes den reach my cousin hse at 10 to see if she can lend mi any dress to go for my d&d i can wear her clothes but it does not look nice on mi and it oso not suitable to the theme...so i went to this fashion, tampines mall and century square to look for dresses...den i went to do up my nails at the century square and meet my frenz(mun) at 2...when i and mun had done, it already 3...den we took a cab back to my hse we finish up our make up at my hse before going over pm...thought of doing my hair too but in the end i did not do it juz ask pm to help mi backcomb my hair save money...den we took cab down to pan pac...we were very early here...so we went to do the airbrush and giltter tattoo...the dinner start abt 7 plus...i saw vincent in the d&d so mi, pm and him took pic together...the overall was ok..onli for the dance part a bit boring...haha..the rest still ok...tt all for my d&d...we took alot of photo here and while perparing too..haha..

oh gosh...

2006-03-16T17:26:00.000+08:00

guys i got sup paper to prepare tt is to mean i had to be at home studying instead of hanging out...oh dear...if i cannot pass the math sup paper i will be removed from my course tt is the least thing i wish for...so here trying my best to study the shit out of me...haiz..hope the sup paper will be over soon and pass tt all i hope for...see ya till nxt post...

first dae working as panasonic promotor...

2006-03-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

my first working as a panasonic hp promotor is quite ok despite the job needs mi to stand up to 9 hrs...all the toking i did todae was abt panasonic VS6 and VS7...i actually have no time to even mingle wif the m1 staff as there was a huge crowd...omg...but the huge crowd oso made my time pass faster without mi noeing it...i onli get to take my lunch + dinner at 4 which is a weird timing too late for lunch and too early for dinner...i choose this timing is oso becoz the crowd at the food court is lesser and after 1 hr break i onli need to stand another 4 hrs towards 9 0'clock which i can end work...i think i am going to sleep liao..nitez..coz i abit tired ne...nitez guys...

tanning

2006-03-10T19:51:00.000+08:00

can u guys believe this, jenny who inspires to be as white as a toilet paper went tanning..haha...well i did went for tanning in the morning at sentoa wif jasmine...nv in my entire coming to 20 yrs of life i look so tan before..i think i look like a thai worker now..haha...sanwatika...haha...as early in the morning like 10 i was so damn high man..as if i had been drunk..haha...laugh and toking rubbish and crap non stop through out the whole trip unless i am drinking or eating...i keep disturbing jasmine as usual..we saw hunks at the sentoa but did not see angmoh hunks like wat jas and mel said...sad...juz kidding...we were keep toking and laugh like madwoman, ok i admit the madwoman is onli mi haha as usual...like the...haha...i had fun man and i did not noe lying on the bench suntanning can be so relax...but abit too hot for beginner when i can't take it den i go soak myself in the water...i simply love the water man...so blueish green..love the color and the feeling in the water...we went to subway for breakfast + lunch...we eat a foot bread, drink, two soups and two cookies shared by the both of us...haha u guys muz be thinking we eat a lot..haha...i admit i am a big eater but i always control myself if not i think i will swell up like a balloon by now..haha...while we were eating we saw a lady in a salior(female version) outfit..haha..it reminds of popeye the saliorman and saliormoon too...we were laughing like hell as i keep singing the popeye song...we left subway at 3.35 plus for some window shopping to digest the food..haha...den we make our way home at 5 .15 like tt from habourfront back to tampines...still toking and luaghing...haha..really had fun and enjoy myself...nxt time ask pm, mel(if she can make it) to join in the fun...

after exam

2006-02-26T19:53:00.000+08:00

yeah..finally the exam had ended liao...so happy...went out yesterday to meet my frenz for moive...we watch 49 days the movie suck...it not scary but quite touching..there one scene the main lead went into the burning building in the attempt to save his worker out of the fire...but in the end he did not manage to save any of his worker/his frenz he ended up watching them dying and could not do anything to get them out of there...this the part where it triggered off my tear glands and i started crying...juz remember of someone...it is really there is nothing we can do when we see our beloved suffering...is this called life?leave us so helpless and badly shaken?i really dun noe and had no answer to tis...hate to have no answer to my own question...i find as i get older i had more and more unable to answer/solution to the question and problem i find myself in or ask myself...there is someone who told me destiny is in ur hand but i sometime find tt i had not control in my destiny or in my life...hate myself for tt and the situation i am in now...

dunoe wat to type for the title...

2006-02-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

i superb stress from exam,cheer and other thing...i find myself wasn't that strong tt i used to think i am...when stress coming from all direction and i mean all direction, i start to run away...as the more i run away or turn away my face as i dun want to face it...it come chasing after mi...i always turn my face away and try my best to ignore it's presence but it will always find it way to appear in front of mi...WTF can't u juz leave mi alone...argh!!!dunnoe y recently i came to like shopping alone, watching movies alone,having lunch alone...practically like to do thing alone...pls dun ask mi y coz i dun even noe the answer myself...as i grow older i do thing alone more often...i dunnoe tis is called independent or loner...

wat i did on v dae...

2006-02-15T14:52:00.000+08:00

i went out for moive wif my frenz, haven seen him for the past 3 yrs...we went to watch "i not stupid too"...omg the moive was nice man, but made mi keep crying...haha...u guys shld really watch it...i oso want to watch "fun with dick and jane"...haiz want to watch so many movies but i having exam next week...we had our lunch at fish and co but i could not finish my food...i felt so bad as he is paying the bill...after the movie, i went for training and he accompany mi...i did ask him to go home and rest, coz he is booking in todae...but he said nvm...ok lo...i noe my cheer mates will made fun of mi if i bring him there...i feel so paiseh...after the training he join mi and my cheer mates for supper den after the supper he send mi home...thanz for ur present oso...nice necklace and the dolphin...thanz a lot...i really like it a lot...thanz..hope that i did not bored u...and oso hope u enjoy urself...i oso hpoe my team did not scared u...thanz...

Chinese new year eve...

2006-01-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

juz want to wish my frenz and beloved a happy chinese new year...nitez...going to sleep liao...i think i am hallucinating...coz i thought i saw a worm on my neck...but it juz happen to be my small little mole...haha...wat a stupid fool i am...haha...i think i am too tired...haha...nitez...i shall end here as i am going nuts...

shopping...

2006-01-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out wif philip, vincent and pei ming...we went shopping for chinese new year clothes...we went to orchard..philip and vincent brought themselves a shirt each for chinese new year...i finally brought the thing tt i had being wanting to buy the roxy strip for handphone...i onli brought tt strip coz i had brought my chinese new year clothes liao...sorry guys...at around 6 plus i guess we left orchard and head for suntec for dinner and wanted to go topshop initially but guess wat we end up at tampines kbox again...i find tt when i go out wif philip and vincent we will always end up in kbox...haha...dun noe y? but i admit tt i did like going to kbox as i love singing although i did not singing tt well...haha...had fun in kbox althought a bit tired...thanx guys for the enjoyable nitez...

will@tp

2006-01-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

our sch cheer team had join in the will@tp event...we had very few people in our team so we ask for help for the TPSU..but guess wat the help tt we ask for had nv came since the start of the event to the end of the event...end up our team super tired...i admit tt the planning tt we had was not very well plan but cannot blame our management team coz the help they ask long ago did not come but captain pls dun flare up...i understand u r tired and stress, so r we...pls try to control...k? pls...the whole event made mi feel like i was clubbing the whole nitez through coz our team dance to every songs or beats tt we heard...and we entertain ourselves when the dj play a total wrong songs making us falling asleep...we r drench in the rain...so we r to cheer on the runner and dr Williams from soaking wet to dry, den from dry to wet again...super cold in the rain...haha...but had fun and high too thought we were in the rain...i am tired liao..so i stop here...nitez...

big splash

2005-12-31T12:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to big splash wif my cheer mates coz clarissa had a party... we took a cab to big splash...when we r flagging down a cab there three person who cut our queue...and u guess wat my frenz eliza actually went up to them and told them off...they still ignore us and walk even more in front look so determine to snatch our cab...finally she got the cab first and she even point her tt finger at us...my frenz was so angry they were like harping abt tt matter from the moment we took the cab till we started eating..haha...they super cute lo...i dun get angry wif tt lady coz i believe wat we sow is wat we reap...we dun have to scold her nor curse her...i believe some other dae she will have her taste of her own medicine...the cab driver who took us there was very nice...we had our lunch buffet there after went for a swimming...cannot said swim coz we oso soak in the water and play slide...i feel like a kid in the water so different on land... after the soaking in water we went cycling...as the double person bike is spoil so yam is force to ride the single seat one...poor yam could not balance initally but slowly after some clashing into us and giving her pointer to balance herself...she finally did it...so proud of her...learn thing so fast...while we are cycling to the jetty we met into three ladies who was walking in the middle of the bicylce lane...yam rung her bell to warn them tt she coming but they ignore her ringing..so she bang into them...yam did say sorry...but one girl who was wearing dunman secondary school PE t-shirt she give yam tt kinda of face while she is at fault...haiz..y we met so much of this people yesterday...after the cycling we took a cab to PP..the cab driver was nice too...so conclude God made us met into the nasty people den the nice people was trying to tell us there are nasty people at the same time there r nice people too...so take thing easy if u guys met into nasty people coz the nxt moment u will meet into nice people...

christmas eve...

2005-12-25T15:46:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to kbox for christmas eve celebration did not want to go town for count down as i dun want to be crush...but onli four of us went to ktv...as terrence and wai dun want to join us..can understand la coz they dun sing can't ask them to pay money to hear us sing...rite?haiz...so i spend a erm quite "noisy" christmas eve wif lip,vin and pm..haha...our activites wif lip they all r very limited...onli can go ktv/cinema...hmm nxt time muz like of other places to go if not so boring...haha...

perhaps love...

2005-12-10T12:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to watch perhaps love wif my cousin and aunt..the movie was very nice...takeshi kaneshiro was so handsome...omg...the story goes like tis takeshi(jiantung) and sun na(zhou xun)was a couple before the both of them become star...jiantung had problem falling asleep always becoz when he close his eyes he will see sun na leaving him for frame which he cannot accept the fact...jiantung and sun na will be starring a movie together,the director was sun na present bf...when they meet at the press conference, sun na show indifferent to jiantung and hurts him...he actually wanted revenge for sun na leaving for frame and finally he did succeed in the revenge...nie wen(director) knew tt they were old flames...he decided to leave sun na...best quote of the movie: A bitter Jiantung tells Sun Na: you made me love a person I despised, and made me despise myself...moral of the story: Don't let fame get to your head...

on the request of jas...

2005-12-06T17:52:00.000+08:00

7 random facts abt mi:

1.cheerful
2.talkative
3.bubbly
4.fat
5.impatient
6.absent-minded
7.positive

7 things i plan to do before i die:

1.sky diving
2.go on a roller coaster wedding(but i guess might divorce on the next day...haha)
3.travel around the world
4.tell my beloved one i love them a lot
5.thanz God for the wonderful life He give mi(on my deathbed)
6.spend the last moment wif family and frenz
7.thanz my family and frenz for loving mi

7 things i can't do:

1.run 2.4 km in 13 mins
2.smoking(hate it and nv thought of trying)
3.speak and write in korean
4.sky diving(now want to learn in future)
5.breath in the water(i can nv do tt)
6.live in harry potter world
7.dun ages as i want to be a kid forever

7 things tat eeek mi:

1.rapist
2.murderer
3.molester
4.bugs(tt fly)
5.still bugs
6.still bugs
7.bugs again

7 most important things in my room:

1.my bed
2.my handphone
3.my notebook
4.my towel
5.my closet
6.my blanklet
7.my pillow

7 people i would love to see doing this:

1.geraldine
2.peng kor kor
3.min yu jie jie
4.min li
5.chui yan
6.doreen
7.adeline

weekly report...

2005-12-05T17:27:00.000+08:00

last thrus i lost my hp and wallet..i put my hp and wallet in the lab located at 18 lvl 5 room 88...after i realized it was gone...i placed my hp and wallet at around 2.55 when i realized it it was 4.55...2 hrs it between...den i thought i will nv gonna find it back as i could be anywhere...den i went to go wif the company of my frenz...after explaining everything of wat happen and i went to file a report of lost in the police post...when i get everything done it was 7...fri i went back to sch on 1 as the tso wanted to meet everyone tt was in the lab...the group of people tt was in the lab was my frenz so they will not possibly take my wallet and hp without return it to mi as they all noe how absent minded i am...they once again accompany to the go, one stop station...and last the security post on lvl 1 of the main gate...and i found my wallet and hp there i did not lost a single cent..Soon Wei Lam was the person who found my wallet at around 7 to 8pm at blk 23 concourse bench...hmm..the problem is i did not go to blk 23 concourse area as my tutorial is at lvl5 den i straight a way go to my workcell before my lab...hmm wat a strange place it was found...den where was my wallet and hp for the 3,4 hrs...it really beats mi...i was camping in sch on sat...can't sleep the whole nitez...on sun our cheer team won the best banner award and third place for cheering...super happy...tt the end of my weekly report...

overall wat i am doing for one week

2005-11-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

on mon was philip's birthdae, me,pm,vin,lip,wai,ter and yao went to pastamania to have our dinner den later went to kbox wif lip's classmate...total we had 13 people in the room the room was super big...during tt period of time happen a lot of thing not very happy things...den we onli left at 2 am...u guys muz be thinking wow so late....haha...i admit tt was quite late but we all had fun...i want to say sorry to lip coz of the thing u noe de...thanz vin for encouraging me...thanz man...on thur my cheer mates brought me and yam a cake coz our birthdae fall on the same dae...thanz blazers u guys are so sweet...tt was the second time i eat cake...den on fri went to seoul garden and eat wif my poly frenz as one of them could not make it for the kboxing...i thought i went there alone coz i was singing alone almost most of the time...den later when i our voice is warm up liao...den we start singing some very high pitch songs like coco lee and shin band...but when we r high it was abt time to leave too...we end at 9...super tired den took cab home....tt was the end of my weekly report..haha...

doreen's birthdae chalet...

2005-11-13T12:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my first time drunk...Oh my god it feel terrible...i keep holding my head as if i let go i will topple over my chair...althought my head spins but i very sober onli feel like sleeping...it all my fault who ask mi to drink so fast coz i want to get it over and done wif and indeed i was get over and done wif...i was drunk because i lost in indian poker and zhong ji mi ma as the lady luck wasn't wif mi...they mix whisky and vodka and some root beer and coke...omg i drank three cup of the tt i can't even walk straight and keep laughing...the whisky and vodka are all 40% and they pour a lot and plus i drink very fast...therefore the results is drunk....but i recover oso very fast...after a while i no long feel dizzy liao and can walk straight...so after all it is not tt bad...and i dun have hangover so alritz...it was fun there...a pity tt chui yan not there to join us...

sianz and ouchz...

2005-11-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

i was injured near my eyes got a cut...and my cheekbones hurts cos my flyer land and kick me near my eyes and forehead...i noe she did not do it on purpose so i did not blame her...sometime in cheerleading it is hard to avoid injury but we will try our best to min the injury...hope it heal faster as i had some problem washing my face...hope u guys dun get to worry abt my injury i will be fine...todae i did a shoulder sit den change to shoulder stand on my senior hope i did not kill him for tt..haha...been forced up by my cheer team and my coach so no choice but to listen and try on my poor senior...scared the shi* out of mi man...lucky heart is strong enough for tt or i will die of heart attack man...i noe i should not scream but i was scared stiff shivering on top...i dun wish to go up on them partly i was not light and i afraid of injuring them i dun mind i injured in the process i juz dun want to get them hurts...so try not to force mi to do flying again...i think i will stop here...

a test...

2005-10-26T15:31:00.000+08:00

i saw tis link in siow pei's blog and decided to give it a try...and here is the results...wat it say was super true...as for the seriousness of your love is not true..ahaha..as i dun have admirers...haha...my frenz try to sell mi off at 599 oso no one want in tt case i dun think i have admirer at all..haha...other den tt the rest is quite true....try it urself http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

tired...

2005-10-25T15:26:00.000+08:00

the past few dae had been working so no time to blog...now tt i'm back so let get the party started..haha...juz joking...been working at suntec for the LG roadshow...had noe a few new frenz there...cool they r a bunch of funny and easygoing people...but always planning to sell mi off at 599 dollar so evil of them...but the worst thing is no one want mi...(-_-) sobx...den the host for the LG roadshow was damn handsome lo...lolz...he is called tim if i am not wrong...the roadshow was super sianz..nothing to do one very free...the onli thing was tt i had to stand through out the working hrs...overall was fun...thanz ah hong and chester made my time pass faster wif them...we kept toking...haha...talkative was one of my strenght...haha...i think i will end here got to get ready for cheerleading training liao...haiz...(-_-)byebye...miz u guys and looking for to friday where i can meet all my darlings...see ya...

birthday...

2005-10-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

on oct first was my granny's birthdae...guess wat the whole family(the 12 grandchildren and 10 adults) went to sakura to celebrate...the worst thing was the manager of the sakura cancel our reservation and even say tt we did not made the reservation in the first place...in fact, we did made our reservation and confirm wif their staff twice...wat a terrible service their haf so tt the way they serve their customer...the service tt u provide is not up to standard work harder...after all the argument tt we had we finally manage to get start eating but all the mood was over when we saw the place tt they located us at...it was way at the end of the place and it is near where the workers wash the dishes...it totally suck and turn off...i will nv go to tt place again...enough of the angry thing...take a look at the pic i took...

sianz...

2005-09-24T20:20:00.000+08:00

so sianz...so boring at home...no job, no money...haiz...got to study 4 sup paper...argh...so sick of tis life can it end soon...

tml's plan

2005-09-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

tml i haf an interview at tuas..and guess wat the interview time is @ 10...omg tt mean i haf to wake up @ around 6.45 to get ready...(- _ -) super early lo...but hope tt i will get tis job so i dun haf to rot at home...cheerleading training will resume tml too...wat a busy dae...and our training increase to 3 dae per week...argh pray tt i will not die during my training...haha...juz kidding...i noe it gonna be real tough as we haf to prepare ourselves for the coming national...without fail i will be moaning and groaning abt the tough training here...haiz...i oso dun wish to..sorry guys but i need a place to vent my tiredness to balance myself...Frankly speaking, i been thinking abt the passion tt i used to haf had slowly left wif onli responsibility..been wondering if i still had the passion as b4...*sigh*...

happi dae

2005-09-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

(the pic done my dear {jasmine})todae my dears and i went over to ming's(one of my dears too) hse...we bake cookies, brownie and make salad for lunch...the salad super nice...the cookies oso everything was juz so nice and fun...we done some chatting and making fun of each other while doing the baking and salad...superb funny and enjoy ourselves in the process...we oso watch my boyfrenz is type B while baking cookies...ming super busy wif her phone while watching the moive...the cookies was super nice onli the shape of it is a bit weird...we left ming's hse at 5...the brownie was nice too but i dun really like to eat brownie...so give it to my bro(my rubbish bin)...haha...let my mum and granny try the cookies they both say nice so happy...onli wish tt dine live near us so she can oso join in the fun...hope we had more this kind of gathering...i think tt it 4 todae...gtg liao..byebye...

2005-09-07T13:36:00.000+08:00

i read a very touching story at this website www.i-believe-you.com the moral of the story is to tell u to treasure and cherish the people tt u loved...the story outline goes like this...there is a girl called jonanna,a very quiet and got a very high "firewall" guarding against everyone as she dun trust people and dun like to talk... she had a frenz called jacky this guy who went into her life...he always wanted to help her get out of her fears and be more friendly...he ask jonanna to believe in him tt he can help her...soon jonanna fall in love wif this jacky while he is helping her and jacky told her tt dun fall for him as he might not be able to return the love she give her because he....if u want to noe the story u guys can read it up at the website above...but if u want to noe the ending u will need to buy the book but it ok cos i order the book liao if u really want to noe the ending u can borrow the book for mi...after reading the story, i felt tt i am a bit like her cos i oso got a "firewall" guarding around me...i remember once my dear(melissa) did mention i dun easily trust people..yes, i admit tt i dun trust people easily cos i was hurt once badly...once bitten twice shy... this words is very hard and a bit tedious for me to say it out of my mouth...however, there is people tt i trust is my family members and my dears(melissa,pm,dine and jas)...they will not sold me out...am i ritez dears?hope i am ritez...cannot believe i wrote this long..kk i think i will stop here...

perfer single...

2005-09-05T11:08:00.000+08:00

someone ask me y i dun get a bf dun worry i am not a lass...haha...although i sometime feel tired i will wish for a shoulder to let me lean on but i guess my dears will be willing to lend mi their shoulder to mi...am i ritez my dears?(pm,jas,dine and mel)...so i dun think i will need a bf...if i haf a bf i will haf to report to him where i am and wat i am doing...i think it a bit tiresome for me at the moment and beside i dun haf the time to always accompany him...hence i think it is unfair to him and myself,therefore i dun want to get a bf...another reason is because i am not ready to commit for a relationship so i stay single...and i am very happy wif my life now and dun want anyone to enter into my life...well u can say i selfish i dun care...does tt explain all...

finally over

2005-08-27T15:44:00.000+08:00

finally finish all my project and had time to update my blog...sorry guys been real busy and not enough sleep so did not update my blog...now exam is coming really hope to get it over and done so i can relax and meet my frenz to chat(my fav thing to do)...not forgetting to get a job for the holidae...hope tt i will be able to get time out if i got a job...but for now got to study hard cos i can't afford to fail any subject if i want to graduate in 2006 march..hope i do not stay back for haf a sem...pray hard...haiz got to go and study liao...if not i might not be able to get my wish...

sOmE uNhApPiNeSs...

2005-08-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

On 4 of Aug during my cheerleading training...I throw my temper on my coach i noe i made he feel paiseh...i am sorry abt it but i can't adapt to the forceful way of ur training as i juz hate people to force thing out of me and i guess no one like it...if u r my long time friend u guys knew tt i hate to been force...the more u force me, the more i not wiling to do...i noe u force us to do more tough physical training is gd and i can accept the push for the physical wise but there r something tt cannot be force...no comment means no comment dun need to punish my flyer to run rounds juz because i dun have anything to say abt the training...i am always happy-go-lucky, friendly and talkative but tt does not mean tt i do not have a temper and can be push around...i oso have temper juz dun try to test how far is my limits...did tok to him after the training abt it and how i feel and how he thinks...i will try to curb my temper more and be more tactful but dun u force me again if not..i cannot take it i will quit and i mean wat i say so dun try me...

getting my cousin a birthdae present...

2005-08-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

finally get to chat wif mel and jas together liao...we had quite a short chat but a good one...agree wif u jas we need a girl's talk...looking forward for holidae so we can meet up soon...dun be too stress mel and jas..let us yi qi jia you..not forgeting dine amd ming...todae went to tm wif my frenz...we went to 'toy R us' to get a present for my 9 yrs old cousin...hope she will like it...looking at the different variety of toys now the kid had..they super xinfu lo...haiz unlike us onli had limited toys to play wif...and also nowaday the parents are willing to spend a bomb to get their kid toys...haiz...suddenly felt so old, nagging like a old grandma..haha...i brought quite a few thing cost mi almost 40 bucks...omg...i brought the present, a cd and a double eyelid glue still trying to figure out how it works...but my frenz clavin did not buy anything..hmmm...tt make mi look like a spendthrift...haha...juz joking calvin...thanz for asking mi to join u in tis shopping trip if not i think i will properly go and get the present alone..thanz man...gtg and sleep liao...got to wake up early for skipping tml...nitez guys...

feeling super blue and missing my frenz...

2005-07-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

suddenly feeling very blue maybe becos of the backstreet boyz song "incomplete" made mi feel like crying...juz now saw someone view on boys and girl relationship...i think sometime boy and girls can be purely fenz not necessary muz be lover...i think frenship last longer den anything...and at the moment i perfer to stay single...all i need is only frenz...jas,mel and dine...we had not meet up for a long time liao...i been missing ur guys a lot...pls meet up together to help get rid of the xiang si bian...i am suffering pls help mi...haiz...this few dae alway feeling like crying wat wrong wif mi ar...i cannot control myself from crying...God help mi...

release out from my suffering prison

2005-07-09T14:45:00.000+08:00

finally term test had ended..i had been release out from the suffering prison of stress..haha..so happy todae is the start of my one week break..yeah..finally can go shopping and ktv wif my frenz liao..haha..but i had to go back to sch on mon to meet my supervisor for the major project..wat a sad news..nvm onli mon..oh ya..tues, thur and fri haf cheer training nvm i still can go shopping before training..i think i will stop here going out later..byebye..